Helping you to overcome heroin addiction through my own experience, strength, and hope.


How to stop Heroin withdrawal

Heroin withdrawal


If you are worried about your heroin withdrawal when you stop using heroin you can put your fears to rest because now days there are prescription medications to help one with their detox they will help you to get through the worst of your withdrawal without suffering. Now if you plan to kick at home you may want to use suboxone. Now you may be wondering how long you should wait before you start a Suboxone regiment for your upcoming heroin withdrawal.

Personally I would wait until my withdrawal started so I would say start your regiment 24 to 36 hours after your last use. Then you will be somewhat in withdrawal.


Remember you may have to take this drug for up to three weeks so be prepared and keep in mind that it will be no picnic!! plus another thing you may want to be aware of is that this drug is an opiate and is addicting and has a high potential for abuse although the withdrawal from opiates are not as bad as other drugs.


If this does not work for you then I would suggest that you go to rehab. There you can be detoxed from heroin medically this will be done by a staff of trained professionals. They will administer prescription medications to help ease the pain of withdrawal. This normally takes anywhere from 3 to 5 days.


How do you spell withdrawal?


It can be spelled many ways; for example.......

"Heroin withdrawal, heroine withdrawal, or heroin withdraw".

Now a lot of folks spell withdrawal a little different some spell it Heroine withdrawal. This spelling comes from the Greek word hero then translated which means a mythological or legendary woman having the qualities of a hero. My way of thinking about it is that it is one bad bitch especially heroine addiction

When some people are using the search engine to find a site they often misspell it another way.

They all mean the same it's a personal preference which do you like?  "

Support for withdrawal


There are many people in the United States that seek help for withdrawal. The symptoms of this drug are harsh and difficult to endure. However, with the proper treatment and support, it is very possible to overcome this hurdle.


Because it is so difficult and laborious to overcome this addiction, a strong support system is the most important tool. This can come in the form of a community support group, family, or from a rehabilitation center. remember to stay strong and seek support from those around you.

Heroin Withdrawal Treatment

This type of treatment can involve several different approaches. Supportive therapy along with medication is the best approach. This would include group therapy and counseling.


There are a number of effective medications that can be used for detoxing. Buprenorphine prevents withdrawal symptoms and works great for many addicts.


Another helpful medication is naltrexone. It also blocks the euphoric and the analgesic effects. This helps a person abstain.


Cloonidine is effective for withdrawal symptoms. Benzodiazepines (such as Valium) are recommended. These ease the insomnia, muscle spasms, and anxiety connected with withdrawal from opiates.

Common Withdrawal Symptoms


Withdrawal symptoms usually peak somewhere between 48 and 72 hours after the last dose. They slowly taper off over the next week. Many symptoms can accompany a very strong need or craving. One in the recovery process may experience restlessness, tremors or muscle cramps.


Some symptoms can be similar to those experienced with other conditions such as the flu. Vomiting, diarrhea, nausea, cold sweats along with muscle or bone pain can all be signs of withdrawals. Symptoms such as chest pain, elevated heart rates and blood pressure may occur. Convulsions and involuntary movements may indicate withdrawal symptoms.

Opiate Withdrawal

There are many symptoms one may experience when going through opiate withdrawal. Symptoms of a withdrawal can begin within hours of the last dose. Usually the most intense signs peak between 48 and 72 hours and then begin to weaken and cease over the following weak.


Going through withdrawals can have seriously adverse effects. If the patient is unhealthy it can even have fatal results. Once withdrawals have ceased it will take continued abstinence. Many benefit from counseling or therapy on some level to help maintain.

Heroin Addiction


Most people do not realize that an addiction to this drug is the most dangerous and deadly addictions there are. Using it can affect the body in many different ways. The drug can stop the flow of blood and ultimately your brain. You will lose the ability to control your body’s functions. The drug can also shut down your nervous system and your respiratory system. Many users are under the assumption that if they wanted to stop using they could. Unfortunately, this is one of the most addictive drugs to use and it takes a lot of help to stop using it.

Withdrawal emedicine

Finding information on emedicine is easier than you think and all you have to do is bring up a browser and do a little research on the subject. Heroin is a very addictive drug and a lot of people need a helping hand to get off the drug. Most addicts that use needles die before the age of thirty or end up with serious health problems. Finding help and getting the help you need is very important.


Heroin Withdrawl Stories



The severity of heroin stories deviates from person to person. The seriousness of opiate withdrawal is often overlooked. Addicts at various stages in their addictions have distinct descriptions; each withdrawal is a personal story. It begins fairly painless with the overproduction of bodily fluids and nausea. Farther along, the detoxing body experiences muscle and bone pain, uncontrolled kicking movements and powerful body twitches, cold flashes, vomiting, diarrhea, insomnia, and extreme restlessness. Going through opiate withdrawal without medical help is not advised; blood pressure, body temperature, pulse rate, and pupil diameter are all affected. Do not go through it alone.


Withdrawal and death

Heroin is a drug that travels to your brain quickly, whether it be taken orally, injected, snorted or smoked. Heroin overdose death depends on the purity, the amount that has been taken and the length of time that have pass from one dose to another. Heroin is one of the most dangerous illegal drugs on the street.

The symptoms can kick in within hours of taking the last dose. If the symptoms about are ignored death occurs.

Rapid heroin detox


There is another way to quit using that is relatively new it is called rapid detox If you choose to do this you can go for the ultra rapid detox this will be done by a staff of trained professionals. Once you are prepped you will be rendered unconscious with anesthesia. While you are under you will be giving medications that will remove all the opiates from your system. When you wake up you may remember your what you went through but chances are you will not remember a thing.


One thing one should keep in mind if they choose to try this method is that it can be very dangerous people have actually died from this procedure. This could be from being under the anesthesia for so long, Another thing to keep in mind if your are thinking of trying this procedure is that it is very expensive; as a matter of fact it can run anywhere from $10.000 to $30.000.


Now I am sure this sounds great for your withdrawal but you seriously need to way the options. I mean are you entirely sure that you are ready because this would be a lot of wasted money if you used again a short time after. These are all great ways for one to stop withdrawl. So why not give yourself a break and stop using today.

Methadone withdrawal

Methadone is another popular way to withdrawal from the drug. If you can kick any other way I would recommend it.


I spent 3 years of my life going to a methadone clinic. I did after about a year of going everyday finally get my take homes increased to 6.


Methadone is also very addictive and hard to kick so be aware of that going in.


I wanted of the met progeny sever times I would start detoxing and get close to being finished and changed my mind.


The only way I got off of methadone is to go to jail. Have you ever heard of being grateful for going to jail well I was.


Let me clue you in I was sick for a whole month. I could not eat I was vomiting and my stomach was cramping.


I would recommend going to rehab and start a subutex or suboxone detox.

Heroin Withdrawal Tips Home remedies

If you have been shooting heroin for any length of time and suddenly stop you are going to have some very serious heroine withdrawls  the same applies to snorting dope.


I do not know if one has worse withdrawals or not because I shot my dope. I always was of the opinion that people that snorted Heroin were wasting.


There are some home remedies that you can try if you are trying to quit using  because like I said the withdrawal will be a bear.


You can start this process by getting some basic things to help keep you feeling as good as possible one thing is you have to stay hydrated so pick up some Gatorade. I would also get something to help me sleep try to find something with so melatonin in it this should help you to sleep through most of your sickness.


One thing I have done and is completely legal is to buy over the counter cough medicines that contain codeine. This should help you a lot.



7. Tips why you should stop using and how to stop 


1. The biggest reason to stop using is that it is dangerous and it will ultimately kill you.


You also never know what the potency is or what it is cut with.


2. Every time you use it is basically like playing Russian Roulette.


Is it really worth the gamble? Do you really have a death wish?

3.Another reason is expensive. If you stop using I'll bet you that you could buy the home or Yacht you always dreamed of.

If you were anything like me you could buy several of each.


4. What about your loved ones don't you think they are hurting too? It's time to take action and stop doing this insidious drug.

5. Here is where you can find out.


6. I would have to recommend attending a 12 step program for starters.


7. If this does not work you better go to treatment. There are treatment centers all over the world you can find the one you want right here on the internet.

Recovery is a Winding Road



When you get out of treatment I would strongly recommend you try some type of addiction therapy this will help save your life and .

This is how I got clean first I went to long term treatment as a matter of fact it was a two year program.

Long term treatment helped me turn my life around.

After I got out I continued addiction therapy.

You have to be willing to do anything to stay clean!!


If you believe the commercials people will do anything for a Klondike Bar. The point here is you have to be willing to place your recovery at the top of the list.


This means staying clean is the number one thing anything that gets in the way of that has to go.

This means the wife the family and the truck.


If you can't stay clean you will have none of that anyway you need to drill it into your head that staying clean is your number one priority.


If can grasp this concept I am sure anyone can get clean and stay clean even you.


You must be willing to make some sacrifices; for instance you really want to go catch a ball game or go fishing.


Well how many meetings have you made this week if the answerer is not many then I would suggest you forgo the other activities and get to a meeting.


Its things like this we must do in order to say clean every day. Stop drinking and take the necessary action to stay clean today.


Junkies hand book to heroin addiction recovery


1. First thing you will want to do is the obvious stop using.

2. I think you really need to distance yourself from your using friends cutoff all contact.

3. It would be a good idea to attend 12 step meetings.

4. If you don't have a Higher Power I would suggest getting one.

5. Pray daily for strength and guidance.

6. Learn to except that you have a disease.

7. Practice meditation.

8. Eat well balanced meals.


9.. Get plenty of exercise.

10. Get plenty of sleep.

11. Start learning to love yourself.

12. Help another person.

13. Call some people in the fellowship.


14. Alto fumar heroina


I wanted to do a post to thank another recovering addict for her help. In recovery we have to realize that it is always not about us.


One day I got an email with a comment to a post I had done and was asked would I like to interview for her blog. The person I am speaking of is named Roxie and her blog is called Recovery Rocks!


Anyway I did the interview and she helped me by sending people from her site my way.


Check this out I was talking with one of my friends today who lives not far from me and I told him I was going to do a post about Recovery Rocks.


He said wow that's funny I was just got an email from a girl I know on the internet and she said I found this great new blog called Recovery Rocks.


How cool is that. Anyway Recovery Rocks is a great blog with a lot of reliable information to help any suffering addict.


There is also a Recovery Wall that you can sign there and there are a lot of people who have. Go check her site out I can't say enough about it see for yourself.


To put it mildly plain and simple are a bitch. You will start to feel real bad about 24 hrs after your last dose.


This will include vomiting stomach and muscle cramps, Don't worry unless you are in very bad health you are not going to die but you will be wishing for it.


The best thing you can do at this point is go to treatment. In treatment they will give you suboxone or subutex for you withdrawls it works great.


You can get through it though with hardly no discomfort.

Heroin home detox

Here are a couple things you can do if you want to kick by your self with a home detox. The first thing I would try to stay awake for like two days before you intend to stop using. I would also have a friend or family member come stay with me just in case I start having second thoughts and want to use.


They may be able to dissuade you form using. I would also get some Motrin to help with the muscle cramps and maybe some kaopectate.


Just remember "Withdrawal from Heroin" ain't no joke.

Ok you have stopped using get ready for a ride. Drink a lot of fluids like Gator Aid it will build up electrolytes this is what they gave me in rehab.


You are going to be very uncomfortable so sleep all you can. Just hold on you will make it I did more than once. I never went to rehab until I got older and it was too much for me.


Heroin Detox

Opiates are highly addictive, making heroin detox one of the most difficult things in the world. The average addict will attempt to quit using the drug approximately ten to twenty-five times in their life, failing each time. In order for the detoxification process to be successful, the following steps must be followed: admit there is a problem, seek medical attention, attend a rehabilitation program, and continue to receive treatment even after the withdrawal symptoms have subsided.


Admitting there is a problem is the first step in the detox process; unfortunately, it's also the hardest. Many addicts believe they can quit at any time, or that their narcotic abuse does not have a negative impact on their life. Sadly, this is not true.


After an addict realizes they have a problem, they must seek medical attention. Heroin is physically and mentally addictive; very few addicts can quit on their own. The physical symptoms of withdrawal are uncomfortable, but they are also dangerous. Medical supervision can help prevent the risk of acute renal failure, psychosis, and death.


Heroin detoxification is usually done in a hospital or other medical setting. After the withdrawal symptoms begin to subside, an addict must attend rehab. However, rehab is not the final step in the detoxification process. After completing a residential or outpatient rehabilitation program, an addict must receive ongoing counseling and medical treatment to avoid the risk of relapse. Heroin addiction can be a chronic condition; when attempting to successfully detox, all of the above steps must be followed.

Lastly if none of this works for you go to heroin addiction treatment!!





186 comments:

  1. It is Monday morning 3.22am and I am stuck at home, and everyone is asleep...while i'm wishing for death! I know I have to stop heroin, but OMG the pain!!!!! I cant sit still, I cant watch tv and fuck...i just wish i could fall asleep but my whole body is in pain.

    Thats when I thought I would look up some ways to motivate me to stop from getting right now (would be on credit as Im broke, hey im a junky!! come on what you expect! *no offence*

    My boyfriend who Iv been with for a year (and lived together for 11months) is in Jo'burg in rehab ( Iv been on heroin for 5 months, hes been on it for alot, and i mean alot longer) and has his family behind him while Im stuck in CPT with my parents asleep thinking that the withdraws arnt that bad! WTF we all know that isnt true!

    But reading your post made me feel not alone in a way and even though it wont help me right now and stop the pain (iv taken 4 mypaids as its the only thing in this house and they dont work at all), it made me smile and know that there is hope and that I have to remember NOT to take again, made it though one day...might as well finish it right!

    For those wondering, why arnt i in rehab...well, my parents cant afford it, otherwise I would be.

    My fear however is that my last hit was only saterday night just over 24hrs ago) , which means Im only getting started with the draws! GREAT :))))

    Luckily here we have a drug centre which I will be going to for the meds later when the world awakes again (oh its a pub holiday, so lets all pray its open, otherwise I will burn this town down until i find an open pharmacy and disturb my doc's off day cos fuck, u all know we dont care...its painful and its no fun...thats if i get through tonight...which i will, i have too...but it will be a pain in the ass!

    Thank you for helping me out at this time of the morning, it really did help to know that it is possible to beat heroin!

    All the best and see you on the clean side of life i hope. (as lame as that was!lol)

    Celz from Cape Town, South Africa

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    1. I am so proud of you an I pray you pull thru. I am reading this bcos my son just started his withdrawals today at home an right now he is hating me badly. He was the one who asked me never to let him out of the house agaib becos he can't stop himself outside but I know that in let's say another 2hours time he is gonna tell me I am absolutely mad to keep him inside an throw my whole house upside down for the door key. We both know tho that I hav the key in my bra an won't giv it to him. I will rather die with that key (not that my son has ever been violent towards me)but I won't let him out. Y is he not in a clinic? Bcos his father went to one came home with no self esteem an got murdered a year later. I can't risk that chance with my son. So he can die at home trying to stay clean but I do not want him outside chasing his death like his father did. Very Selfish maybe but no lack of love..........I love that boy so much I would do 2 detox programs for him anyday and trust me after 8weeks in hosp with morphine everyday I did my share of detoxing an I whom docotrs said won't live an then said would be paralysed, I not only lived I even walked again and I really did not think I would survive my withdrawals an I don't even thunk I would survive doing those withdrawals again. But for my son.......I will do it twice over.............so yes maybe ur parents don't understand what u are feelings an wot u in for........show them this site an help them educate themselves cos then they wil be more supportive towards you. I pray you have the strength for this but also that you remember to pray for that strength. Good luck.

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  2. Thanks for your comment Celine.

    I have been right there where you are now. I think maybe the first couple days are probably the worst but you are doing a great job so far so just hang in there it takes time. Once you get past the withdrawal you can begin to change your life. I know you can do it. Just remember this you only have to go through it once. I had to go through it many times until God reached down and pulled me up the last time. I would also like to tell you that no matter what happens never ever give up keep on fighting you will make it.

    Take care and stay in touch let us know how you are doing

    Art

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  3. I just found out today that my husband, married Septemeber 19th 2009, relapsed on Heroin. He sat all of his family down and told us what he has been holding in for over 2 months now. I have questioned him over and over the last few months and asked him if he was using again or if he felt ok or if the money he withdrawed actually went to bills, considering he took a large sum out 2 to 3 times a week. I now realize all of these signs of him nodding out, but saying he was only tired, or the late night drives saying he has to go pick his friend up, or the times where I would look into his eyes and they were harldy a pupil to look at, he was addicted, again, 4th relapse, and lost 2 1/2 years of sobriety that I was there to witness the whole way, gone down the drain. I am so hurt, not that he relapsed,but that he would lie to me for so long and so easily. My heart is crushed. Just needed to vent, any help? Does Suboxen really work, will it help him, is it expensive? any comments will help.

    -crushed newlywed

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    1. just tryin' to help -please watch this vid-contact author of this document-he may help u...not me.....IBOGAIN TREATMENT IS THE WAY OUT --->>> http://vimeo.com/25291673 -DETOX OR DIE

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    2. Suboxen really helps alot and I know someone that still takes a small amount each day after six years but has turned her life around and has a good job and doing fine. My daughter takes it twice a day for a month now and don't think she could live without it. All that being said nothing works if they don't want to help themselves.

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    3. lock your husband in a room for 10-15 days i sure u that he will stop taking it after that becuze when my dad came to know about me he locked me in a room for 20 days food water etables u can give him inside but no drug even not in small qauntitiy also then u see

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    4. I HATE DRUGS... ESPECIALLY HEROIN. THEY ARE RUINING OUR YOUNG PEOPLES LIVES. INCLUDING WHAT WAS ONCE MY BEAUTIFUL DAUGHTER. I DON'T RECOGNIZE HER PHYSICALLY, SHE IS A MESS. SHE STEALS FROM ME AND OUR FAMILY, MONEY, PAWNS VALUABLES, ANYTHING. I LOVE HER SO MUCH, BUT SHE WON'T QUIT. I'VE TRIED TO HELP HER, FOUND A PLACE FOR HER TO GO TO REHAB, EVERYTIME THEY HAVE A PLACE FOR HER, SHE HAS EXCUSES AS TO WHY SHE CAN;T GO. SHE WILL LOSE CUSTODY OF HER CHILD SOON,IT WILL TAKE YEARS TO REVERSE THE DAMAGE SHE HAS BROUGHT TO HER LIFE BECAUSE OF THIS DRUG AND SO CALLED "FRIEND" PIECE OF SHIT SHE DOES THE DRUGS WITH.

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    5. I totally agree with you, I hate drugs ! I found out last May my daughter was hooked on heroin and her and her friend stold money from my bank account and pawned everything I had of value. After finding out she agreed to go to rehab and she did and went back to work and got an apt and moved out, I went to visit her one day and she was gone and it took me almost 6 months to find her. I walked the streets and passed out flyers and the only tip I got I followed and I could not believe what she was involved in, She was into some kind of sex trafficking scandal and it broke my heart, I found her at a hotel and the cops came and took her to the police station, I did not even recognize her this was not my daughter. We are from a small town and she went to the city and got messed up in this. I don't know what to do now I was allowed to bring her home and am trying to get her into rehab but everyplace I call wants 2,000 up front, I cant find anyplace that will take her because she has no money. I cried every day that she was gone worried sick I would get a call to go to the morge to identify her body and then I get the tip of where shes at and find out shes into all this. The salvaction army is trying to help get her in somewhere and I have called several places but no luck, so she is here now its going on day two and shes going through withdrawls and I don't know what to due but pray. My only option I have I believe is to get her into a clinic for something called suboxin so I am working on that. I haven't slept because Im afraid she will leave and when I work I have someone sit with her. Any advice on how to help her through this ? Thank you.

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  4. Hi Amy

    Sorry to here about your husbands, relapse but does and will happen. Yes it hurts to be lied to but the thing is when an addict is caught up in the grips of addiction this is what we do, lie and tell another lie to cover up the lie we just told. I would be glad that he did finally come to you and the family. Now as to the question about the suboxone yes it is expensive but then again so is heroin and it does work. The thing is the person who is taking it really has to have the desire to stop using. The first thing I like to suggest to someone who relapse is what did you quit doing; for instance did you stop attending meetings or therapy? The thing is he was not been doing enough to stay clean obviously he wasn’t therefore the relapse. Recovery is all about action and more action if we do not take action we will fail! I would also suggest that he recommit himself to staying clean.

    Good luck

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    1. Been reading some posts n all I know is the only thing that worked 4 me was when I was sincerely at the bottom of my personal shit pile. Many friends died n I kept shootin dope. I began at a real young age. Granfather gave me laudnim which is tincture opium and I was in the hospital everytime he would move to another realitves house. So now I am 56 yo and am on methadone. I know lots of people lose their minds when I tell them Iam on a methadone clinic. I say live my life and then you can judge. Til then Peace to all who are in the throes of heroin addiction and are GOING to quit using one way or the other. RIP Phillip Seymour Hoffman another beloved person who was taken too soon.

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  5. There are people that want to quit their addiction but are not strong enough and sometimes they become addicted to the suboxone while trying to come off the heroin. What is the best way to get off the suboxone? I have heard tapering off slowly but it doesn't seem to work for everyone.

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  6. Thanks for your comment. You are right some people do become addicted to the suboxone and yes tapering is a great way to stop using suboxone. It may not work for everyone some people are just plain going to have a problem getting clean period, for those that do have a problem getting clean do not ever quit trying. It does take a lot of work at first but trust me it does get easier and becomes second nature. If tapering does not work I would suggest going to treatment and get detoxed there.

    Good luck

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  7. Thanks to everyone leaving their thoughts here. It makes me feel so not alone. I'm someone who has taken many drugs their whole life (pot, coke, rocks), and been able to get off them. But once I started heroin, all bets were off. If you've never done heroin, do yourself a BIG favor and don't even try it. Your body begins to NEED it, and there is NO EASY way to stop.

    I'll be looking here for help in ending my dependency on horse. I've tried suboxone and had GOOD results - it totally alleviates the withdrawal. It is NOT, however, as effective as heroin in covering the PAIN, mental or otherwise.

    Please continue to share your experiences, they are inspiring - in the sense that I can see others have succeeded in STOPPING. I am a "higly functioning" dope addict. I have a high profile job, and earn an income in the top 5%...but all of that means nothing since I have lost that which is most dear to me: my FREEDOM. I cannot do ANYTHING without having first scored my fix, and that is SAD. With the help and support of others, I hope to soon stop my using. Thanks for being here, people.

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    1. hi i just saw your post and i just wanted to now how you are doing?? i hope all is well and your feeling better i feel your pain if you can keep me posted please do so if not my prayers are with you.... dee

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  8. Hi everyone, I am the long suffering girlfriend of a heroin addict for over 10 years. I have never used heroin and resent everything that it has taken from our relationship. I feel that I am finally at the stage where I cannot support my partner the way that I used to. Emotionally I am empty and tired. How do I tell him how his addiction is effecting me. It is something I have had to deal with by myself and hide from family and friends. I have tried to hang in there for the sake of our family but I just feel that he is not that serious about changing his life. He gets back in touch with those people that share his addiction and this cause alot of arguments between us. I would love to have some advise from anyone that has been in this situation cause I am really at a loss of what step to take next. Jane

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    1. Hey my names linz, ive been an addict for fifteen yrs, i met my partner, who i thought was my life, i was a straight head at the time n was brought up very nieve.
      I lived with him thinking every thing was wonderfull, then i caught pregnant n had a lovely baby girl, then to my shock i found out my partner was a heroin addict, i tryed helping as much as i could, yeah right! Nowt helped.
      I was eighteen when i met him im thirty six nw, n ended up using like him, why???. I dont know, maybe to stay close to him, if i.couldnt beat him join him.
      Nothing has changed, there are not many people i know who succeed in staying clean, its all lies.
      I think by make believing were clean it will make us feel better, ive had methadone for ten yrs, councilling, n nowt helps n two lovely children who r 15 n 17 who didnt sign up for this lifestyle.
      From my experience theres no end. Ive tryed n failed n tryed n failed. Theres no hope.

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    2. Hi Linz

      One thing I would like to say is never give up because one never knows when the miracle will happen and people do get clean and stay clean..

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  9. Art said...

    It sounds like you can do better right now, for both yourself and for him. He needs space away from you. He might say that he needs your support, but that is not the truth. In truth, he needs some distance from you so that he can make a decision to stop using on his own.

    If you split up for a while it might be the thing he needs to change. But if you stay together, then there is no way he will change and things will probably get worse over time.

    Just my 2 cents of course, good luck.....

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  10. Hi everyone and this blog has been a great help to me so far, I am sat in my bedroom on day two of detox and am feeling absolute rubbish. I have lost my girlfriend and our two children over this and she is the only person who knows about my addiction. I am sat in my bedroom while my father is out working like I should be with him as it our own business, and my mother is preparing food, I have such a loving family and could never bring myself to tell them about this, partly because I am ashamed of what I done to myself and what it would do to them, we earn a good amount of money so they never notice anything like this, but I want my girlfriend and kids back so I am going to do it all alone and feel that a few days more should be the worst of it, then I can start moving on with my life.

    I got in to this stupidly with a friend of mine who we used to do crack together and then after about 6months of doing crack we just said why not lets try it, so there is no real physcological reason why I started just me and a friend thinking it would be fun and bring us down off the crack he is now is a subutex treatment but again I was to embarressed to talk to my GP as he is a family friend and even though its confidential I dont like the thought of it.

    But reading stories here I can see that there is a light at the end of the tunnel and I might be able to have all that I pushed away back again and be happy, but if she still doesnt want me back again then I am still wanting to move on with my life and start hanging out with my old friends who dont touch anything like this and are missing me as they think I am always working and dont want to come out due to tiredness at night which is obviously rubbish I want to sit here and do my dope to myself.

    Thanks for the great blog and also all the comments its nice to know I can still escape here and at least take my mind somewhere else for a while.

    So thanks and congrats to everyone who have made it.

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  11. I work in the treatment of addicts in Canada. I stumbled across this blog while researching dilaudid addiction. I just want to say this is a great blog and I think what you are doing is helping many, many people out there. My heart is warmed at your care for others to lead happy, healthy sober lives. It is just awesome. I have had a hard day and reading about your determination, both in your recovery and your desire to help others, has inspired me in my journey working with addicts.

    Thank you for bring a smile to my face.

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  12. Thanks for your comment. I am glad that you like my recovery post and that they brightened up your day a little.

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  13. Annonymous....
    I am a heroine addict. I was on it for about 8 months. Ended up in hopsital for dug related issues. Got clean and went right back to it. I then stocked up on pain pills/xanax/advil/benedryl and detoxed. I was clean for 1 month and 3 days. Relapsed again and here I am. (my son is my suplier), he came around again. Haden't seen him since clean and boom..happended so fast. It's beyond devestating. Can't go to treatment. No insurance. Called every place I no here in st. louis. My family doesn't know yet and am so scared. Esp with fiance. He said if it happened again he would kick me out. Calling a doc tomorrow but can't tell them about the heroine use. The last doc dismissed me from care due to me telling him my addiction. I just don't have a plan...very depressed. Devestatingly sad and not wanting to go thru withdrawl again....it was pure torture. Even with pain pills. I have dibilitating PHN pain due to shingles. 2 years I've been dealing with that. Have seen fam doc's for that and nothing helps me.Please help. I'm so very lost, confused, embarrassed, so afraid, and just plain sad. Thanks for listening...

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  14. im online today looking for help, in tears soo..depressed. im on my first day of kicking the snorting habit of a 4 week binge. i started using as a pain reliver after a surgery. i dont want to go to treatment because i would lose my conceal and carry permit to carry a pistol. so im doing this on my own and without my wife knowing. and will take your advice about cold medicine with codine. thanks for trying to help with your story. -josh St.Paul MN

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    1. Hi I just came across your comment and was wondering how you are doing now? My boyfriend also started using again after a surgery and as his leg is in constant pain. I have looked into alternative pain therapy now for the pain. You should speak to your wife, she may be more understnding than you think. Thats just from experience of my boyfriend being worried to tell me. I was very angey and upset but ultimatly this is the person I love and help and support is what he needs. Anyway I hope that you are doing well, my prayers are with you.
      Sunny

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    2. logging on searching for a painless way to withdrawl again...its been over 2 years since my post and the ups i dont care about anything cuz i feel good but during the downs i have so much self pity its sad. if i could go back in time to my former self 3 yrs ago the only advice i would have is to never try heroin...

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    3. Hi Josh

      I have to say that is sound advice there.

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  15. Hello,
    My younger brother has been fighting addiction for more than 5 years. He tried to get a treatment but he stayed clean only for 5 months. Anyhow, I have tried to stop giving him money, kicked him out, tried to make him feel guilty for his selfishness and what he does to me and our parents.I really need help with this and i need an advise on how to approach him to realize he needs to get a serious help. I noticed that you mentioned that you went to a inpatient facility for about 2 years- Could you please give me more information on the facility you were admitted to? I would truly appreciate your assistance, time and help on this matter. Thank you in advance

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  16. hey every1 i just wanna say that i been on dope ot heroin for 8 months and i went to detox and still dint feel good but since i tryed suboxone it has been a life saver and i never wanted to do dope again . every1 have to find ways to stop dope try suboxone it really works and it can work for u too.if it dont theres all ways different ways .

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  17. Thanks for your comment and good for you I am glad it worked for you and you that you were able to stop using.

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  18. I just discovered my husband has been smoking heroin for almost a year. 6 months before the discovery, my son was diagnosed with severe depression. I want to stay and help my husband but I have to take care of my son. I feel tremendous guilt leaving my husband but I fear my son will get worse or become an addict. I also fear my husband may harm himself or keep using. He refuses to go to rehab and will only do out-patient care.

    Also, I am afraid that my husband will not get the proper care. His best friend is a drug dealer and most of his friends are casual drug users.

    I am not a drug user and I do not associate with those friends. I don't even drink.

    What's worse is his mother does not know about his best friend or the casual drug use of friends. How do I tell her without putting myself in harms way? I feel in my heart and gut I have to tell her or my husband will not survive. He is currently at his sister's home detoxing. I couldn't take care of him or my son.

    Please help me.

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  19. Thanks for the comment

    Its probably for the best that you left anyway it does not sound like he really wants help. As far as his mother goes you will have to do what you think is the right thing she probably knows something is not right.

    If she does not it is only a matter of time and she will know because you can bet that something will go wrong he will land in jail or overdose or worse die. Sometimes we think we are hiding things but only to find out otherwise.

    I can tell you this though if he is serious about getting clean every single friend he has that uses drugs will have to go epically his best friend the drug dealer. When we get clean and think we can hang around old using buddies we are only fooling our self because we will eventually be using right along with them!

    Good luck

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  20. I found out last week that my 19 year old son was shooting up heroin. It has been devastating. My whole family is deeply sad for him and would do anything to help him. Right now he says he wants to quit and wishes he never took it in the first place. He is trying to come off the poison by himself, by means of alternative pain meds. Everyday we ask how he is and tell him we are here for
    him. He does not want to do to go to detox now, but did say last week that we could take him to the hospital if needed. He has thanked us for being there for him. I am scared that we are doing the wrong thing by letting him do this himself. I dont want him to be a lifetime addict, or end up dead. I am going to try to convince him to seek help or bribe him. We have taken away his car and limit what we give him. Last week was a week of accepting he is an addict. And this week we dont know what to expect out this horrible addiction.

    Lost and need advice
    Thank You

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  21. Thanks for your comment. Well it has been my experience that trying to quit with pain meds did not work for me in fact, until I came to the revitalization that I could not do it alone and sought help I could not stop using. Good for you on taking his car away. I would try to convince him to go to rehab and by all means limit what you do for him as far as money. I hope he gets the help he needs.

    Good luck

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  22. Im a south african and cant find a doctor to give me subox one,nor do i have money for the doctor. i have been smoking for over 2 years now, and i lost the love of my life. he left cos i chose it over him. im hurting my family, losing my friends, and making them bankrupt. i cant explain the money issues and missing items in my flat i sold for drugs. my family will not understand or support, i cant go to rehab, its not an option. i need advice! i am such a weak pathetic person, i have no self control at all to stop but i want to, its ruining my life. i do crazy things for the money to buy, cant stand it. i cant go to rehab and am to weak to do it alone, worst is my dealer lives down the road and has alot of my possessions :( please help? this is not how i wanted life to be,im very prone to depression and suicide which does not help either. if i stop heroin wot wil i replace it with, i hav this need to feel wasted, it makes me happy. and i dont want to get fat if stop. help?

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  23. Thanks for your comment. The best thing I can tell you to do is that if you can not go to rehab your next best bet is to find a NA meeting to go to. I am sure there are meetings some where near you. There you will be surrounded by people who understand and who have been right where you are at this moment. They will do what ever they can to help you to get clean and stay clean.

    Good luck

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  24. I found out last week that my 18 year old son was snorting heroin. I was suspicious for a wile but never caught him. He had 7 little baggies of it in his wallet. I looked through his wallet while he was passed out. He never slept at night only during the day. I took him to a rehab yesterday for detox, so far he is doing okay. I have his phone and I know the people that he uses with and that he was as he said "helping" to sell this stuff (cheese) Do you think I should delete the numbers or change the phone # while he is in rehab?

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    1. Yes, delete everyone and change his phone number, or even better don't give him a phone at all that's how they call thier contacts! My son has been in rehab once and was clean for over 7 months, going to meetings after they get out is key! He went back snorting heroin again!! He is back in rehab, he stole money, jewlery, tv's, wheels off his car the works. It is horrible. Call those people and tell them to stay away from your son! It's a battle every day after rehab and never let them lie to you agian!

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  25. Thanks for your comment. I would suggest that you may want to change the phone to keep them from calling him. If they come over to see him tell them he quit using and to stop coming around. This will solve that problem now your son has to be firm and tell them the the same thing if he happens to run into them. He simply can not have any using friends period!

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  26. my little brother came up to me one day while we wer at a friends house and said he had an oxycotton ive eaten pain pills beforeand have usd drugs casually but never really considered myself as an addict so i tryed the oxy and likeit from then on it progressed into an every day thing after about a year my little brother started using heroin and i didnt know about it untill i caught him snorting itin his room but by then my addiction to oxys was full blown so i tried it because the oxys really didnt do much any more so i started snorting heroin and told myself i would never shoot up well 2 years later i find my little brother dead in his truck and i wascompletely devistated how could i let this progress sofar how could i letmy little brother die now i have been shooting heroin for a yearand i wantto stop so bad its drained me finacialy emotionaly ilost my friends but havemanaged to hide it from my family need help god if your out there please give me the strength to fight this diseas

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  27. Thank you for your comment. God is out there and I believe he wants you to get help. That's the reason you made it to this site today you want help. I am sorry that you brother had to die but I do not think that he would want you to die the same way that he did. I would suggest that you consider going to rehab. That's a great start to turning your life around.

    Good luck

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  28. my first day with out u in my life things felt strange of the derange even though i know your doin ok take it slow u just never no my systums caught in a conipution stomach in nots feenin for my medicine overcomin addiction the first step is quitin naw the first step is admitttin i got a problem i need help this aint somethin i can beat my self almost feel like i cant be cured rehab wont take me cause i aint insured layin in the bathroom shakin like a newborn searchin for the courage it will take me to move on ive bin livein like this way to long god pleas bring me home i stoped before three or four days always wind up back in the same place people call me a junkie dope fiend how they gonna judge me they dont even know me lights off want to be left alone im try to enjoy the methidone put a jimmy hendrix on and excuse me while kiss the sky dose off woke up sick to my stomach ran to the bathroom and started to vomit the methidone wore off and the withdrawls started that first day was the hardest for u little brother i never though i would have to b here with out u i miss u more every day till we meet again give me the strength to fight

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  29. Thanks for your comment. I am sorry rehab would not take you. I can tell you this I have been right there where you are now sicker than a dog a whole lot of times you will have to trust me it will get better. It is just going to take some time. I would try going to a meeting in a couple of days when you get feeling a little better. I would also try praying and asking for Gods help.

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  30. i went to bing and typed in "i cannot stop smoking herion" and found this, and honestly, i have w/d'ed so many time, i actually tollerate withdrawls like rite now, my unemployment ran out so wtf am i sposta do, i dont wanna quit but i have to, how do i make my self want to, and yes i lost everything, THE MOST BEAUTIFUL WIFE everything, so how can i make my self want to quit i have been trying for 2 years i dont wanna die but tried suicide twice

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    1. Look this is gonna sound really stupid I ganged bang for 15 years lets just say I have a lot of nitemares n y something to escape reality this is what has helped me out wing ure self off stay up for like two or three days wile u do little bit n then crash a bar will help not the kind u drink at and staying awake well that's easy but don't forget to eat n drink a lot of water even if ur not hungry I'm not telling u to do this but it does help u forget to smoke cause ur busy playing Xbox or cleaning the hole house twice n make sure ur not alone but if u have no one keep ur head up n listen to some good up beat music pray and don't feel sorry for urself remember pain is just weakness leaving ur body.aka. Box

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  31. Thanks for your comment. It sounds like you are tired of using. I can tell you that if you stop using you can get a lot of what you lost back. You may not be able to get everything you lost back but I can tell you that you will appreciate it more. It just takes time try going to a meeting and sharing there that's what I did and I am clean today. I thought that I would die an addict but God had other plans for me. Why not try praying it may help.

    Good luck

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  32. I have been smoking H for a couple years or so and have tried to stop twice. The first time was cold turkey, I locked myself in my girlfriends apartment for a week without any meds to help. I stayed clean for a month but began using again out of boredom and stupidity. 6 months later I tried to stop again this time with the use of au oxone since I had a full time job and could not just lock myself away. I only needed a couple pills before I was clean again but about a week into being sober I suddenly began to withdrawal in the middle of the night so I picked up a dime sack thinking it would only be a one time thing just so I could sleep and get to work. Dumb I know. Well here I am again 4 months later and I just took my last toke hopefully. Tomorrow will be the first day of the rest of my sober life. Wish me luck. And goodluck to all of you. I'm personally tired of being tired all the time and worrying about my next dime. god bless

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  33. Thanks for your comment. I hope it is your last time to. Just remember we do not always get it right the first time I sure didn't. It takes time and you sound like you are tired of using. I know you can do it because I believe in you. They told me I could do it and I am clean today. Above all never quit trying.

    Good luck

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  34. hi just a short question i am 18 and have been using heroin since i was 13. i am now into my 7th day of withdrawal and have not touched anything opiate based within this time. i am starting to feel a lot better but still have a constant headache and never seem to have any energy.i have a lot to look forward to to motivate me to stay clean but i keep finding that i really want to get another hit, not because it will make me feel better but because i keep thinking of good times i had while taking heroin. i no this may sound silly and i am fully aware that the pain isnt worth the pleasure. i would really appreciate any advice you have for me.

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  35. Thanks for asking the question this lets me know that your serious and congrats on 7 days that's great it may not seem like a lot but one day clean for a heroin addict is a miracle.

    Yes you are young and have your whole life ahead of you. It sounds to me like your disease is trying to get you to remember the good times. That its job its ultimate goal is for you to use and die. Now you have to fight this thought when it comes up tell yourself its a lie and focus on recovery read a little from the NA book on who's an addict.

    If you continue to stay focused on the good times for too long you will use again. Try praying or going for a walk but above all don't fall for the lie.

    Good luck

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  36. My husband and I had been married for 9 months when I found out that he was a heroin addict. Not only that, but he had been lying to me for our entire relationship. I only found out about the heroin because he was arrested and thrown in jail for drug-related incidents and armed robbery. After I found out, I was of course shocked, devastated, and petrified. I was willing to try to help him get help, but his actions over the next several months showed me that he was not ready for help and that he did not want it. He continued to lie to me, manipulate, and do things to emotionally hurt me. His mother had been enabling his behavior for almost a year. She would bring him to the doctor, help him lie and get him OC. They both kept this a huge secret from me and would lie to cover up my suspicions. I made a decision to leave him. I made the decision not based on the fact that he is an addict, but because of the fact that he continues to lie, hurt, and abuse me. This behavior was constant through our relationship. Looking back, I can see a lot of it was drug related, but some of it was not. His mother physically assaulted me. She is his biggest problem, besides the drugs. Though I know I do not want to be married to him and that it would be nearly impossible to rebuild a trusting, mutually beneficial relationship, I am of course very attached to him and love him deeply. We are currently separated and I have served him with divorce papers.

    Though I can no longer be married to him, I am absolutely petrified that he is going to die. The fear I have consumes me every moment of the day. I feel so helpless. I know I cannot force him to change his life. He says he wants to, and he tells me he is not on drugs. He said he started suboxone treatment. But I read in the paper that he was arrested for DUI (drugs), fleeing the scene of damage, and totaled his car.

    Though I am aware of his horrible lies and manipulation, I have the insatiable desire to rescue him. I know everyone says I can't rescue him. What can I do? Everyone tells me to cut him out of my life. But I am sooooo afraid he is going to die, and that is the reality. Heroin kills. I feel so helpless, and have the feeling that even though I have done EVERYTHING I can to help, I am basically sitting idle watching him take his own life slowly. He will not take my help, or anyones. He pretends to, but he doesn't.

    I would truly appreciate anyone's advice. I know I can't fix him. But what am I supposed to do?

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  37. Hi thanks for your comment.

    I am afraid that you are going to have to let him go at this point you can not help him and are actually hurting yourself. Maybe this will help its from the NA basic text.

    "They can be analyzed, counseled, reasoned with, prayed over, threatened, beaten, or locked up, but they will not stop until they want to stop."
    Basic Text, p. 62

    Perhaps one of the most difficult truths we must face in our recovery is that we are as powerless over another's addiction as we are over our own. We may think that because we've had a spiritual awakening in our own lives we should be able to persuade another addict to find recovery. But there are limits to what we can do to help another addict.

    We cannot force them to stop using. We cannot give them the results of the steps or grow for them. We cannot take away their loneliness or their pain. There is nothing we can say to convince a scared addict to surrender the familiar misery of addiction for the frightening uncertainty of recovery. We cannot jump inside other peoples' skins, shift their goals, or decide for them what is best for them.

    However, if we refuse to try to exert this power over another's addiction, we may help them.

    They may grow if we allow them to face reality, painful though it may be. They may become more productive, by their own definition, as long as we don't try and do it for them.

    They can become the authority on their own lives, provided we are only authorities on our own. If we can accept all this, we can become what we were meant to be - carriers of the message, not the addict.

    Good luck

    Art

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  38. Thank you very much for your response. The hardest part is that I want to believe him so badly, so I do. I want to believe him when he says that he is clean and that he wants help. But he has done nothing to show me this. I continue to fall victim to the manipulation. I am allowing it. It is so, so hard to just walk away... especially when he tells me that I am the one abandoning him...

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  39. Hi ya that sounds familiar but until you do you will continue to suffer. It is just like an addict to not take responsibility for themselves and lay the blame elsewhere. I would put it on the pay no mind list.

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  40. hi all..!!,, iam a user my self on the foil not injecting but its still using.. anywayz iam skick of this shit and need to build up some self confiidence and get my life on track, all i do is wake up chill out for a while and then go score some heroin/smack ect and then come back home and sit there all by my self every day, and its been like this for over 3 years... but ive been on heroin for about 10 years,, but the last 3 years have been worse... i just wanna be normall, wife kids/friends/ holidays (LIFE)....i ve tought about taking my life a few times cosn this life is so shit/ the lowest of the low, plus iam on medication like methodone what iam also addicted to plus valium.... man i need help soon......... iam dancing with the devil at the momnet and i dont like it and it better not last for ever.. I WANNA BE FREE !!

    PLEASE GOD HELP, IF YOU HEAR ME !! THANK YOU

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  41. Hi thanks for your comment. Ya I know exactly what you mean when you say you are sick of all of it and want a normal life. That's exactly what I wanted to. I have a pretty normal life now that I am clean. I went back to school and I am working on a bachelors degree but do not have the wife yet. God does hear you but he wants you to take action be that going to rehab or NA meetings I can tell you that you will not stop using sitting around the house just thinking about it. I tried that one too did not work.

    Good luck

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  42. hello everyone i am 17 years old and i just recently started shooting my dope rather than snorting it i need help have no idea what to do my arms look like a mess cuz im always missing my viens. my family will never understand what im going threw i was wondering if there was away i can go into a rehab center without my familys knowledge i feel bad cuz i got some good friends including my gf hooked on heroin and i know that we all need 2 stop any advice will be appreciated

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  43. Hi thanks for your question. I am not really sure but I think that you probably could go to rehab. If you have one in mind give them a call and find out. Another thing I can tell you is that you may be surprised about your parents whether they understand is not the point the thing is you need help and I am sure they only want the best for you so do not rule them out if you can not go on your own.

    Good luck

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  44. AIIGHT ITS 2:30 AM AND I TOOK MY LAST HIT AT ABOUT 5:30 YESTERDAY EVENING AND THIS FUCKIN SUCKS!!! IV UNLEASHED A MONSTROUS BEAST PUMPED FULL OF HERION FOR THE LAST 5 YEARS AND I MEAN JUST STRAIGHT ON THE GRIND!!EVERYDAY ISA HUSTLE AND YOUR NEVER PROMISED TOMORROW.WHAT IM SAYIN IS IM SICK AN MOTHER FUCKIN TIRED OF THIS LIFESTYLE.. SO HERE I AM GETTING READY TO TAKE ON THE PATH TO HELL! BRING IT!THIS ISNT GOING TO BE MY FIRST TIME DETOXING,BUT ITS MY FIRST DETOX OUTA JAIL! SO I ALREADY KNOW WHAT IM IN FOR...FFUUCK!!! TEMPTATION IS LURKIN RIGHT AROUND THE CORNOR.(BY THE WAY TEMPTATION=DEVIL) NA BUT I WANT TO FEEL THIS PAIN SO I REMEMBER GOOD AND WELL WHAT'S DOWN THAT ROAD YA MEAN. BUT READING THESE INSPIRATIONAL POST PUMPS ME UP MAN!! EVEN THO IM ALL SHAKY AN SHIT AND ON DAY 1 IT GIVES ME HART,AN THE WILL TO DO BETTER."IF YOU KNOW BETTER YOU'LL DO BETTER" BUT WHATEVER I JUST WANTED TO GET SOME OF THIS SHIT OFF MY CHEST.

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  45. hey:) ive been lookin4 a site like this1 4a long time&im so grateful that i found this. ive been shooting heroin 4 about 10yrs& its ruined my life, ive hurt my family&myself&im SOOO ready2 quit. my family doesnt know bout my struggle& thats why i cant do rehab, im gonna detox onmy own over the wknd cuz ill have the house2myself. i have some meds2ease the process-mainly a drug called gabbapentin which makes the withdrawl easier&some sleeping pills since4me the worst symptom of withdrawl is not bein able2sleep &also the restless leg syndrome&this med helps w/both. but im scarred the pain will b 2much2bare. i know if i can get threw this wknd ill finally have this beat, but i could use some advice on what2do when i get really sick&get the urge 2use(tellin myself its just2ease the pain). im tryin2prepare4the pain i know is coming but please help me-i just need advice on how2 get threw those 1st few days of hell-please help! thanx so much

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  46. Hi thanks for your comment. The best thing I can tell you just to hold on and keep telling yourself its going to be over in a minute and I will never have to use again against my will. I would however try to stay awake as much as possible before the weekend comes and this will make you extra tired and help you to sleep through the worst of it. Sounds like you have enough meds to help you.

    Good luck

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  47. hey art:) i dont wanna keep bugging u but i forgot2 ask u in my last post if u know how long till the worst of the sickness is over? u know, how long till i can function again? i guess im just worried it'll never stop. anyway, when u get a sec if u could let me know yr insite id appreciate it-thanx so much!

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  48. Thanks for asking and your not bothering me I am here to help as many people as I can who want it and sounds like you do.

    It has been my experience that when ever I quit using and went through withdrawal the worst of it is over in 72 hours. I would say you would be able to function then but keep in mind that you are not going to be feeling at your best. This will take a bit longer.

    Do not give in when things start to get rough because they will. Just remember that this is the last time you will ever have to go through it so just hold on the best way you know how.

    Good luck

    and if you need further assistance feel free to ask

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  49. Hey Art,

    My brother used for 6-8 years. We arent really sure when he started but in 2008 he was locked up for a year and in feb 2009 he was released and I brought him home to stay with me(same town but about 15 min from the hood he hung out in). I could never let him live with me before because my ex husband did not want to trust him around our son. My new husband wanted to help so we let him live with us for about 7 months until he wanted to move out with his girlfriend he had started dating. All the time I spent with him, I don't think he ever relapsed. He always has this sort of glossy tired look in his eyes but I think that has become his new look because when he was using he was definately closing his eye lids and sometimes rolling his eyes and nodding out. I haven't seen this. Should his eyes still look glossy and tired though? Also I just recently seen him for the first time since Christmas 2009. He said he was still with his girlfriend and they were renting a new house that they were trying to fix up. In a 2 week period he asked my granny and cousin for cigarette money and me for $40 to hook up his water for the new house. Right now is 9:15p and he has been working with my husband on a side job since 4p and looks and acts fine. I asked him why he was burrowing money for little things and he said he was had bill money set aside that he didnt want to use on cigarettes and he doesnt want to keep bumming cigarettes. He claims that he will not relapse and that he never needed and still doesnt need therapy or help or talking to anyone because he said the year in jail kicked his habit. Do you think this is possible? He has a hard time finding a stable job because he has a felony on his record and his license is suspended, so I know he is really depressed and feels worthless all the time. I am afraid he will relapse and I cannot let him live with us again. My husband said once was all he was going to do and now we have a new baby and the spare room is the baby's room. I have talked to him about therapy and I asked how he was doing staying away from drugs and he gets defensive and says he's not doing it. I know I cannot force him to do anything he doesnt want to do, but what are ways I can get him to admit it and help him stop if he has recently restarted or ways I can help him continue to not do it if he really is still clean? If he goes back to it and his g-friend kicks him out, he has no where to go. I am so worried for him. I had the money to send him to a detox rehab in richmond with the $800 implant for 6 months last year but he was so adament about not getting it that he wanted to put that money towards his court fines. I cannot afford the implant now. He just seeems so depressed and tired and now asking about money, Im worried. What do you think??? Thankyou!

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  50. Hi thanks for your comment

    It's really hard to say about the glassy eyes but I would watch out about giving him money. Yes it is possible that the year in jail did break him from using but and this is a big but.

    It has been my experience that this will not last because addiction is so strong one minute you may be doing great and the next something may set you off and if you do not have a solid recovery foundation you will use.

    I do know that with God anything is possible but God gave addicts the tools to work with to recover from addition ie NA AA and so on. If he is using he will not be able to hide it forever especially if he is back in your life.

    Anyway I would tread lightly.

    Good luck

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  51. hey art:) im the girl who posted recently that i was trying2quit over the wknd& im ashamed 2say i relapsed last nite. i had forgotten that i had a box that belonged2my dlr&last nite he came by2get it&i didnt have any$ &didnt ask him2bring any stuff so since i know he doesnt just carry it around w/him i figured i was safe-stupid i know. well, recently as a kind of parting thank u gift, i bought him a case of his fav drink&when he came over last nite he brought me a "gift"&its all my fault but w/it right in front of me i couldnt say no. so now i feel like such a loser, &that ill never b able2quit. i sometimes think that im so alone even around my friends&family cuz they dont know that im struggling &they would b better off w/out me im sure. &2make matters worse, i go2the same school as my dlr&i have a crush on him, so i cant bring myself2 delete his #. yr site is the only bit of comfort ive had recently cuz i know u have experience w/this stuff so i know u get where im coming from. so i know i sound totally pathetic&sad right now but if u have any more advice id greatly appreciate it. thanx so much

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  52. Thanks for your comment. Well ya know relapse does happen I believe that we learn something new from each one. The key is to practice what we have learned. Number one do not feel bad about relapsing. I am not saying this to say its ok I am trying to tell you to turn off the ass kicking machine pick your self up and start again.

    I can not begin to tell you the number of times that i had to go back to a meeting and share that I relapsed aging. They gave me a hug and told me to keep coming back so I will do the same for you keep coming back no matter what.

    good luck

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  53. hey art:) i just wanted2say thanx 4 yr reply 2my post earlier this morning bout my relapse. yr right on all counts. yea i feel ashamed, but im not gonna use that as an excuse 2keep using. i had made the decision 2quit&im not gonna let my 1bad choice spiral in2 more bad choices-instead, im gonna choose 2c it as just another step on my path 2recovery. yea i messed up yesterday, but 2day is a new day& im just gonna tell myself that i promise 2stay clean just4 2day& take it 1day @a time u know? cuz while the thought of tryin2stay clean 4the rest of my life seems daunting @times, the thought of staying clean just4 2day is much easier2 visualize, so ill do it 1day@a time. & i feel like im writing u 2much&i hope its not buging u, but im just so grateful 2have found some1 who knows what its like2 fight this monster. it really means alot2me 2b able2 go 2 yr site when i feel weak or upset-it is truely the most encouraging, helpful& heartwarming aid ive ever found. so just want u 2know that u make a difference&have helped inspire this person 2stay on the path2 sobriety:)

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  54. Good for you!! Yes we have to do it one day at a time. No you are not bothering me believe it or not you are actually helping me to stay clean because that's what its all about one addict helping another. I believe that's why God helps me to stay clean.

    Write as much and as often as you want.

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  55. I am a younge mother of two little girls. My husband and i have been addicted to oxycontin for over 3 years. we started to do heroin about 4 months ago. it was cheaper and easier to get so it became our drug of choice. We are now clean and havent smoked in 2 months. we used suboxin to do so. Our life and the life we provide for our family is a million times better. I went through an experience 2 days ago that i will never forget.We do not allow drugs or drug use in our house. But a friend of ours was at our house and got up to go to the bathroom. I didnt think anything of it until his friend tried to check on him because he had been in the bathroom for about 15 mins.Next thing i know his friend comes running out saying he needs something to unlock the bathroom door because the man in there wasnt responding. I stood in the hallway while he popped the lock on the bathroom. The first thing i see is my friend laying face down on the bathroom floor purple in the face not breathing.I couldnt believe it. I ran in to help. We had to roll him over pull a needle out of him and I had to do CPR and call 911 until the emergency personel arrived. When they did my friend was still not breathing and was still dark purple in the face. He had no pulse and his heart was not beating. When they wheeled him out he still was not alive. After seeing such a thing happen in my house i couldnt believe what i had let my life come to. We have been clean and i never thought in a million years this would happen to me. I later found out they revived him on the way to the hospital. I just wanted to share this because as soon as he was released he called me asking if the cops took the rest of his drugs he had. I couldnt believe my ears! If your an addict I pray that you get the help you need. The life of drugs is no life at all. I kills people and ruins lives. quitting is not an easy road but its worth every second of the journey.

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  56. Hi thanks for sharing with us and congrats on staying clean this is great stuff for others to read. I believe you about him calling and asking about his dope that is typical behavior for and addict to come back from the brink of death and all they want to do is get high. It really reminds me of myself when I was using. Anyway keep up the good work.

    Good luck to you in your new way of life

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  57. Never in my life did I ever think I would be dealing with someone on drugs as a child growing up in nyc and riding the trans and sometimes in the park I would see people nodding off almost falling to the ground and I would laugh because they never seems to fall,now its almost a year now since I found out my girl friend has been useing heroin I know she was on something but didn't know what well we got her to go to detox she did 12 days which we all thought was not good enough but she hot out started the out patient meetings and na I went with her a few times to na hey she was loving it she had her 1week clean then her big 30 clean key chain I was very happy for her so was she for her self that did last long she started again so we did intervention got her to detox/ rehab again same thing all over again im@ the point where I just can't take it anymore im I wrong for feeling this way im sick of watching her sleep in her car all night in drive way disappearing for hours/days its like im a lone anyway. Feel bad but I think I need to me first now. Ps something I notice from going to NA meetings is that thosee people r in their 30s 40s 50s saying I've been clean for 20/30/60 days and u can c in there faces that they've been useing for a long time so my question is can they really stop using

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  58. Thanks for your comment. First of all I would not feel bad there is a limit for all of us as far as what we can take. Any way at some point you will have to decide what is best for you. From my experience the 14 day programs are like a wake up call or a beginners course in recovery. Very few people actually make it the first time through.

    Now as far as your question yes some people do get clean when they have had enough. I am one of the older people you are talking about and I am clean and sober today thanks to God and help from a lot of people I am able to stay clean.

    That is one of the reason I have these sites to let people know that any addict can stop using drugs, lost the desire to use and find a new way to live clean.

    It took me many many years to put together any substantial clean time together. I would not give up on her but at the same time you may have to distance your self from her. It took me going to long term treatment for 2 years to finally get my shit together and learn how to live life without drugs. I would suggest the same for her if she is willing to go if not there is really nothing you can do but pray for her until she is ready.

    Good luck

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  59. im a heroin addict been using for bout 5 months and before that percs oxy u name it....financialy im crumbing i wanna go cold turkey my biggest fear is the cold sweats and the tiredness whats the best thing for that please im in dire need of recovery i cant do this anymore

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  60. Hi about all I can tell you is to try and stay awake all day and night a couple of days before you intend to stop using this may help you to sleep through the worst of your withdrawals.

    Now as far as the sweats go they are just your body getting rid of all toxins and heroin you put in it so its quite natural but I would try to remain hydrated buy yourself some gator aid that's what they gave me in rehab to build up my electrolytes.

    Hope this helps good luck

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  61. I have been with my bf for 11 years. He has always had one habit or another but I found out a year ago that he was shooting heroin. I have begged him to stop for so long. It is finally to the poin that he doesnt have enough money to get high and hates the hassle of gettin enough heroin everyday to jus be well. I had heard people talk about being dope sick before but the first time I saw him sick I was really scared. He has finally decided to try to quit but wants to do it at home. He refuses to go to rehab. He has requested the next 7 days off work to detox. I have read a lot about different thing that help with the pain and discomfort of withdraw. I got him 20 valume to help him sleep for the next few days. Thats the worst part for him. Along with the muscle cramps and stomach pain. I know this is not going to be easy for either of us. Any advice on what I can do to hep him thru this??/

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  62. Art said...

    I would just say that you being there for him is the best thing you can do for him at this point. Him knowing that you care enough to stick with him despite his addiction is great. We all need to feel loved especially addicts. Other than that the rest is up to him.

    Tell him to hang in there that it gets better but it will take time.

    Good luck

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  63. I have been smoking heroin for the past 5 years! I relapsed after 10 years of sobriety from 1996 to 2006! Well, two years ago I found suboxene and for a period of about 6 months I was sober and got my life back together and landed a job. I excelled at my job and money started rolling in & don't you know it I played mental games with myself and I relapsed! I would tell myself no big deal I can get clean with suboxene at any point I choose and so began a cycle of using getting clean then using again. However the addiction has such a grip on my soul now that I have had a bottle of suboxene just sitting here for over a year now & I cannot find the inner strength or conviction I need to stop using. I have every reason in the world to stop using & I really want to stop but after many failed attempts I am admitting that its impossible to do this by myself! Problem is I am always by myself outside of work smoking heroin in my room! I never go anywhere you could say I am the epitome of antisocial cause it gots such a tight grip on me. I am so ashamed and embarrassed to have my loved ones find out I relapsed especially after all the pain and suffering I have caused them in the past when I didnt have a job and was stealing and lying to them to support my habit, so I alienate myself with my addiction. I have found it so difficult to ask for help! I was at my wits end and out of desperation I googled " i have been smoking heroin for 5 yrs and need help to stop" and here I am!!!!!! I cant say enough about what a blessing it was to find this site and read so many stories that felt and sounded like my own life! I could relate to every single person who posted a comment on this blog and it gave me the strength and conviction I have been searching for to stop this disease once & for all!! This is the first time I have talked or said anything to anybody about my addiction in over 2 yrs!!! God Bless every one who has posted on this site and I am going to get clean & once I am I will come back and post and hopefully I can help people in the future find the hope, strength and conviction they need to finally get their life back!!!

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    Best Regards,

    MikeR
    Orange County CA

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  64. Hi Mike thanks for sharing with us. I have to tell you that you pretty much shared my story there. I relapsed for years getting clean for a few and then using it again. One thing I can tell you is that you get clean and stay clean. You talked about getting your dope and going back home and staying three I did the exact same thing with heroin alcohol and pills.

    Now heres the thing I would strongly suggest that you come on up out of there and go to an NA meeting there will be others there that have been or are going through the exact same thing you are and will be more than glad to help you. NA saved my life and is still saving my life many years later.

    You can do it Mike I believe in you!!

    Good luck and keep sharing

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  65. Hi...I have a boyfriend who is on heroin. He is 30 & has been using since he was 15. I have never used til I met him & he said he wouldn't let me. Then he said he would let me only once. Then he did let me use basically anytime he did. We went broke a few nights & I did go thru some mild withdrawal. I thought maybe I had the flu for a few days. I haven't used since & I doubt I will. Here's the big problem. His dad has had him on suboxene, but my boyfriend usually sells or trades out his suboxene for more dope. About 2 wks ago, his dad started breaking his suboxene in half. Last week he dropped him to 1/4. My boyfriend hasn't had anything since Saturday & it's now Tuesday night. He has been in some terrible withdrawals & it's hurting me so bad. I almost want to run out & get something to make him feel better, but I know I would be hurting more than helping if I did. We're both in college & I'm doing all his work so no one knows what he's going through. Two weeks ago, he accidentally broke a needle off in his arm. It was a short needle & I tried to take him to the hospital, but he just won't go. So, I told him I would make a very small incision w/a razor blade & get it out. He wouldn't go for that either. (just fyi, I do have some medical training AND am former law enforcement...how did i get here?) He's just leaving it in there. No matter how much I beg him to plz just go to the ER or walk in clinic so they can remove it. He says no because they will call the police. I said So what who cares if they call the police!! This is your life we're talking about!! He told me I'm not in the shape he is & I don't understand. But, I think I do. I love him w/all my heart & will do anything for him. If he told me to go get him some dope right now, I'd probably be halfway across town already. *tears* I love him so much. Please tell me what to do.

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  66. Hi thanks for sharing. First of all I can not tell you what to do. I can tell you this I have been to the hospital numerous times for heroin overdose and they have never called the cops. So I seriously doubt they will I mean be honest what are they going to do. Second if he leaves that broke off needle in his arm no matter how short it is it could very well go right to his heart and it will all be over in the blink of an eye. Once again you have proved that addicts make poor choices.

    Good luck and hope he comes to his senses

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  67. Thnx Art. Yes he almost died 2 years ago from overdose. He's been in the hospital 3 times for overdose, but last time he was in a coma for almost a month. I never dreamed I would ever go through anything like this. I mean I smoked pot when I was a teenager, but that's about the worst of it.(well actually, I still do smoke it, but not an everyday thing...I have just always liked it & I know a lot about growing it & different kinds & it's a hobby of mine) I started working in law enforcement in my early 20's, so I really didn't hang around any users, other than our "frequent fliers" or CI's. I did once get addicted to Lortab after a really bad motor vehicle accident I was involved in. My Dr worked me off it slowly. Now I've met this guy, the love of my life (so i think), & I just don't know how to fix him. I want to...& he says he wants to be well, but he always goes right back to it. I'm 13 years older than him, but no one knows it but us cuz I don't look my age at all. We both look about the same age, but if he keeps this up, I'm afraid he will die before me...& I don't know if I can handle that. We met at college. I never knew how easily you could obtain drugs in college. I'll tell ya this much I've learned...Heroin is definitely a rich man's drug. We have spent about $5,000 in the past few months on heroin alone. All those years workin for low pay & I could have been makin some serious cash slingin dope. Of course, I would never do that...but just addin it up, it's a bit mindboggling. I have been reading everything I can get my hands on & honestly, I would like to say that I am glad he let me experience it, because now I know what he's feeling & why it's hard for him to get off it. I would never suggest anyone else to try it for those reasons...just sayin I learned something that most non users don't understand. I will stand by him no matter what & I know when he's hurting, the mean things he can say are not really him talkin. It's those demons. He is way 2 bright to let the demons win...I will fight them with him & I don't give up easily on anything. I may come back here w/questions from time to time if that's ok. Thnx so much. (Oh & I'm takin him first thing in the morning to get the needle out. I talked to him about his od's & he said they never called the pd then either...so he says he will go w/me) Thank you so much.

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  68. Hi glad to be able to help. That,s what I do is try to help people to stop using just like people helped me to stop using and yes write me anytime you feel like it and I will do my best to get back with you as soon as I can, more than likely the same day within a few hours or so. I am glad your boyfriend is going to get the needle out.

    Take care and God bless

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  69. hi my name is arnie im from cail la i have been doing heroin for about 8 years i smoked it for about 5 years and shoting it for about 3 years i went in to detox on the 13 of may i came out and scine then i have shot up about 5 times i have no more vaines left there r all blown out i mean all of them every were u could think of even my penies i took suboxone for a few days after detox and i stoped taking them im going to meeeting every day i used today and i going to do every thing i can not to use again like u said i know this will be the last time i have to feel like this it might take awhile but its ok it will get better right i hope the only other times that i have been clean is when i was busted in the last 8 years i have kicked in jail maybe like 20 to 30 times but this time i did not go to jail i took my self to rehab and i paid for it here in Cail we have rehabs for 200 bucks this is in la they keep u for up to 14 days so if any one wants the place i went to is called ARC its in pamonia i think thats how u spell it well any was i just wanted to take u art for having this blog it helps alot cuz u know at times when ur down u think ur the only one with the problame but ur not there is other user like u that r going throw the same things that u r and when u read about it u know that ur not alone and that makes u feel like ur not alone that ur not carzy that ur not the only one with those bad things going throw ur head i would like to say thank u again to u art and i hope the next time we talk i could tell u i got my 30 or 60 or even 1 year chip wish me lucky and god bless every one i wish every one good lucky and it does get better i just have to learn to ask god and he will help me he will give me the power if i did it in the jails that many times i could do it here were i got my mom dad and brother if i could do it for months in jail i could do it out here i have allways stayed clean in jail no matter if i was there 10 days or 365 days i have kicked in jail like i said maybe 20 to 30 times in the last 8 years but this time will be the last every one keep ur heads up and keep coming back cuz i know i am going to keep coming back

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  70. Hey Arnie glad to here from you. Now do not feel bad about using well let me say that a little different fell bad enough not to want to keep doing it.

    In other words do not get out the ass kicking machine many of us relapse I can not begin to tell you how many times I relapsed before I got clean and actually put some substantial clean time together.

    I have to say this for ya Arnie you did the right thing by picking yourself up and continuing on with your recovery. Remember recovery is a gift from God and a lot of people do not get another chances. I think you will eventually get it right just like I did and it does not have to take you over 30 yrs to do it either.

    Now keep in mind you will have to keep going to your meetings because that's your lifeline. I would go to a meeting and share about your relapse that is the way we set ourselves free. Ya I know its embarrassing but get on over it and do it.

    I would suggest that you attend meetings every day and get yourself a sponsor and start hanging with other addicts because your old using buddies need to go if you have not already cut them loose.

    Good luck and let us know how your doing

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  71. i justed wanted to say thank u for thanking the time and reading about what im going throw and helping me by guideing me in the right way i feel much better talking to u about what i did and again thank u very much i think this blog of urs might be one of the few reasons that i will stay clean and im happy i found it ur doing a great thing but im sure u know that even if u save one its all worth it thanks again

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  72. im 33 years old,and have been on a methadone script for 8 years..23 days ago i decided to just stop taking my meds. no docters would help me with medication to stop,i was obviously gutted because of how uncomfortable it was going to be..but i got through it anyway.the problem i've got now is that i used heroin for 2 days because of a death in the family,its the first time in a year that i messed up but i'm finding that the feelings are worse than when i stopped taking meth..even though its only been a two day slip have you got any advise on nateral meds to help..like i said at the start no docter in my area will help with any meds..i could really do with some sound advise from someone who understands how difficult it is..FROM SCRAPPY

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  73. Hi right off hand I can not think of anything. I am pretty sure that you are not going through withdrawal after a 2 day slip. I would say to drink plenty of fluids get some Gator aid it will build up your electrolytes. They use it in a lot of rehabs I have been too.

    There is a natural drug that helps with depression called St Johns Wort you should be able to find this in any good sized drug store.

    Good luck

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  74. Hello, I am 33 years old and have been chasing the dragon for about 6 years. I can't get a prescription as my work can access my medical records. I want to stop but I can find a way to do it. I have lied to just about everyone that I am off it, I am sure this is no different to anyone else. I am now scared that meth is worse to get off. I don't want to lose my job but at the same time I want and need help, however that is unlikely. To be honest there are no recent posts so I doubt you are still around. Basically I can't talk to anyone about this, the only one I could has now left me for our dealer as I could not afford her habbit too. What do I do? I sometimes think it would be easier dead (not going too by the way). I struggle getting meth which I need to get me through a day ay work. Its a mess. Have you any advice for me and are you still helping people like me?

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  75. Hi there Yellow play

    I am still here been working on my other sites, check them out.

    drugaddictiontherapyguy.com and

    heroinaddictionhelpguide.com

    I would suggest that you go to rehab. The reason I say this is that meth is hard to come off of and you are going to need to be in a semi controlled environment to do this.

    Now about the job if you do not get help chances are real good you will lose it being an addict there are a number of ways this could happen I don't need to tell you all of them.

    In the mean time I would suggest that you start attending NA meetings there will be a lot of people there just like yourself who will be willing to help you.

    I have been drug free for years now and I still attend meetings because they help keep me clean and sober.

    Good luck

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  76. i just got married to a addict and she has been clean for 3 months and now we got into a small verbal fight and then she took of half way across the country where she knows that she can get to her next fix and i am here just hoping and praying that her family out there can help her and so that we can get her back here to me away from it all but i didnt realize the signs that drinking or using a fake back problem or saying that she has axanity just to get to the doctors to get a script to help try and numb her craving these are thing that i didnt know that can trigger it and its a hard leason that i am learning and i miss my wife soo much that i am willing to stand by her at all cost but i need help to understand the warning signs and things to look out for so it doesnt happen again PLEASE I NEED HELP TO UNDERSTAN !!!!!!

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  77. Hi there you just pretty much described the warning signs. The thing is here that even though she was not using her preferred drug of choice she was still using something to numb herself from dealing with life.

    What I would suggest is that if she ever does come back she will have to quit seeing doctors and drinking alcohol.

    Any mind altering substance can lead us back to our drug of choice. As you can see she took off across the country to find hers.

    I would also suggest that she goes to rehab or at the very least starts attending NA meetings on a regular basis.

    She will need help to stay clean and sober because we can not do it alone and unfortunately you can not really help except to be there for support.

    What she needs is the help of other recovering addicts at the meetings to get clean and stay clean.

    Good luck

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  78. thank you art i am working with her family to try and stop her and right now her step father is at the bus station waithing for her to bring her to her sisters home cause her sister has convinced her to go there and talk and then they are going to work with her the sad part is that no body told me she even had a problem and it just kinda makes me wonder if they were tring to pass her along to someone else. i love my wife and i am standing strong and i want to do what ever it takes to help her through this long battle is there anything more that i can do because i dont what to set her off again and if it was just a small arguement that did it this time what is it going to be next time? than k you again steve

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  79. Here's the flip side of addictions...

    I am a mother of a daughter who has been using drugs since 13 years old. She is now an experienced drug user and clever at working her way around. I believe she is now on heroin. The veins in her left arm look used up. She just turned 20 years old and she also got married to a man this year (who's been in the circle of drugs himself), who was 30 when she was 17. I did not approve, but there was nothing I could do. He does seem like a nice fellow, interestingly enough. I hope the best for him too.

    When I asked her if she had ever done heroin, she confessed she tried it twice when she was 17 yrs., but stated not anymore after that. She has a medical condition now which effects her kidneys and her husband has continuous trouble with his kidneys with stones. As much as this crap is killing her... it's also killing me because I love her so much!!

    I've been reading some of the comments looking for insight. I'm fearful for my daughter.

    When I look at what I've written... 13 years old... I can't believe she's in this swirl. She had a good upbringing, a good home. How does this even begin? My daughter started with drugs... when my husband and I were going through the process of a divorce. Interstingly my daughter said she wanted me to divorce him... in the end she ended up being persuade to go live with my X. He offered her everything I said no to... temptations. A big long mess, but in the end my X used her as a pon in his divorce game. She is the one who suffered for it. My son stayed with me... he is well. My heart breaks for my daughter.

    She even confesses she thinks she's going to die young. This FREAKS my mind out!!! The sad thing is she is so tangled in this drug web, she's up and down with her emotions, my son will have NOTHING to do with her for all the upheaval vengence she's done.

    My position as a mother... I can't rescue her, she has to be willing. I want to fix it and make it better, but she's the one who has to cry out and say... "I'm a drug addict and an alcoholic and I need help!" That's all she has to do! But, she wont't. I tried my best to get help to her when she was living with her father, but he kept me a a distance like a dragon guarding his prey. That $%^#%#@# X didn't give a dam about her, only his vendictive plot to hurt me. Now, here's the end result. She's left holding the bag. She's already been raped, tried suicide a couple of times, been arrested, done drugs, etc. And she's only 20 now. The one hopeful thing is that she has a good job now, but sadly she is now on disability because of her kidney trouble and she's not letting up on the alcohol that I can see. I believe she is still doing heroin.

    She complains that she gets really hot, then really cold, and at times it feels like her back is going to snap in half and leg cramps. She is taking oxycotin pain relief on top of whatever else she's doing.

    There is nothing no one can do unless she wants the help. My hands are tied! But I am not without help myself... My hands can be tied in prayer... I fold them together tightly and pray... GOD, MY FATHER, rescue my daughter and let her live life more abundantely!! Don't let her die! I have prayed for many years... sometimes I've been awaken at 3:00am to pray for her... and I will continue.

    For those who are out there still addicted... know this... there is someone who loves you so much that you are hurting with your drug abuse. The addiction can be overcome... but first it's got to be in your heart to want to stop. Find your vision and hope. If someone is willing to be there for you to help you out of your troubles like a relative or good friend... then TAKE THEIR HAND! They want to help!

    This is the flip side of drug abuse... it's not only killing my daughter... it's killing me... her mom.

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  80. Hi there I feel for you with your daughter I know that it hurts but you are right though unless its her idea and she is willing there is really nothing you can do. I liked the honesty you shard in this comment I know that had to be tough.

    I also like the fact that you are asking God to intervene that's great because with God nothing shall be impossible.

    I truly hope you daughter sees the light. One thing I do know is that we never know when the miracle will happen!!

    I know I was so far into my addiction that a lot of people said I would die from it but they were wrong. I now have many years clean and sober with the help of God and other recovering addicts.

    I do believe that any addict and I mean any addict can stop using drugs, lose the desire to use drugs, and find a new way to live. I have personally seen this done countless times over the years so never give up.


    Good luck and God bless

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    1. Dear Art,
      Iam using H since last one year.several times i tried my best to quite but failed because i can not bear the withdrawl pains..Soboxone is also not available in my country and i also not want to be admited in a rehab..Iwant to quite at home for this i need your advise

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    2. Here ya go this is from my other addiction website

      http://www.heroinaddictionhelpguide.com/how-to-detox-from-heroin-at-home/

      Good luck

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  81. I had a problem with pain meds for years, i have a bad back. i knew a i had a problem so i got some subs and laid up in a motel for several days i was doing good. i had 14 days of no meds. this past week me and my girlfriend had problem and i went on a H binge. just 4 days but maybe 5-6 bags a day. It wasn't that pure but my question is how long will the withdrawl last? its been 42 hrs since my last use, i got a couple xanax and some lopermide for the runs, i don't have access to subs now. i feel like such a piece of shit. any advice?

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    1. Hi

      I would have to say that if you only used 4 days that they should be gone by tomorrow; in fact, all the heroin is gone from your system right now.

      Keep in mind that there will be mental aspects to deal with which will try to convince you that things are worse than they are this is to keep you using drugs. This is the how the disease of addiction works.

      Good luck

      Good luck

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  82. thanks Art, well its 2/5/12 and i do feel better than yesterday i am not near 100%:( i would say i am running at 65%-70% maybe. I think its alot mental like you said. i don't want to be around any of this anymore i disowned all my friends that use. i am hoping tomorrow is much better. i forced myself to the gym today but my workout was shitty. I am starting to eat again after dropping the 10lbs i gained clean. i can't focus on anything right now. Could it be possible I am going thru withdrawl of the subs along with the H? I did subs for 10 days and taper to a quarter. I can't do this emotional roller coaster anymore. what do you recommend OTC i can take? I take a mens multi, i take creatine, glutamine, and arginine for workouts. is there anything OTC to help with sleep and to cleanse my body quicker?
    thanks my friend.

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      It may take a while to get back to the way that you were before you began using again. I would just be glad that you are feeling better today and take it one day at a time and that's enough.

      Now as far as the sub withdrawals that should be gone at the same time there that the heroin is. Plus keep in mind they are a lot weaker than heroin.

      Multi vitamins should be enough but you may want to get some Gatorade it helps build your electrolytes back up. They use it often in rehab and that's where I learned about it.

      Keep exercising going for long walks keep your self busy ect.

      I would also suggest that you start attending NA meetings. Here's why it has been my experience that we can not stay clean alone. I know I never could and very few people do and I really have never met one.

      I know you will do exactly what you want so all I can say is has your way been working for you!? If not you may want to try a new approach.

      Anyway try and remember what I suggested here.

      Good luck

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  83. Thanks Art,
    I feel the more i am replenishing my body the better i feel slowly. the NA meetings i am completely embarrassed to attend. i was always the healthy in shape guy from HS and this happened? i ask God everyday why? why didn't the doctors tell me this could possibly happen when i hurt my back? if they would have told me it was this addictive with the pain meds to start this roller coaster i would never have taken them. i am so disgusted with myself and embarrassed. i had to watch my mother cry when i went to their house and tell them i had a problem. my father told me it was my fault but come to find out both his brothers were addicted to H back awhile ago. i never told them i did H but pain meds i did. Thanks for your advice, it really helps to talk about all this.

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    1. Ya well I felt the same way when it came to NA. I thought that I was better than that. One thing is sure though you can not save your face and ass at the same time.

      I would encourage you to take a chance because that's one reason why we used fear of this or that.

      Anyway its all good we learn from are experiences unless we die in a relapse. You do not have to do it the hard way like I did. I am very lucky to be alive after 30 plus years of drug addiction.

      I want to share with you the real deal about addiction the end results are always the same jails, institutions, and death, or recovery and they do not have to come in this order

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  84. Thanks Art, i know there are thousands like me if not millions in the world. i think i can do it with out the meetings, i know i cant screw up anymore or i will be homeless. i want my old me back, i want my girl back. it all ends now. i havent touched a med or h since thurs evening. i want the in shape me back. thank you for your encouraging words my friend. congrats on your sobriety as well.

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  85. Hey Art, is it normal to be real foggy so to speak? my head is not clear. i just seem so out of it??? last use was last thursday at 6pm est.
    thanks

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    1. I would have to say yes especially if you were using a lot. As long as you do not pick up it will pass.

      Good luck

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  86. In the midst of day three. Its especially hard because my girlfriend broke up with me on day one. She wants to stay friends and help each other through this but every second I see her now I get more depressed and just want life to end. I'm having a real hard time dealing with the pain but I don't want to be an addict anymore. The pain and depression Really sux. I have to get through this though. Thank you for the tips. Wish me luck.

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  87. Art,
    I'm here for my sister who is an addict. Just found out today she's been shooting for a year along with her husband. Been researching all day. Chats, forums, blogs, sites...whatever I can find. She's tryin to detox at home, but her husband isn't. From what I've read, that will never work. She'll never leave him. They have 4 kids. Don't really know what to do. As for now, my plan of attack is to tell our brother and hope that the two of us can talk some sense into her. If not, I go to our parents and we go get the kids. Just felt like I needed to share after reading everyone's dark secrets. Best wishes to all. Thank you.

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  88. I'm here to support anyone who is effected by the addiction of herroin. At one point of time both of my parents were addicted to herroin. I will be 18 in a month and only one of my parents succesfully stoped using. My mom was using herroin when she gave birth to me and my brother, and it's really painful to see what she goes through, everyday her eyes roll in the back of her head and she stands in one spot daily, constantly nodding and catching herself before she falls,she is not the same person from my childhood years, she lost most of her teeth and she is only 36, I have seen things and been places that no one living should ever experience(horrific things you don't want to know:-(, my dad is now a functioning alcoholic, and my parents are divorced, I have witnessed 2 overdoses from my stepfaather in which he died in my arms, and my grandmother died in 2006 from an overdose

    To any one fighting the addiction, i believe in you, you can do this, please don't give up your all very strong,

    sincerely, C.M.age 17

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  89. Thank you CJ so much for sharing part of your story with us. Yes I know having an addicted parent can defiantly take you to some strange place and see things that a most people would have a hard time to understand. I commend you for not falling into the same trap.

    Keep sharing your story there is no telling whose life you may change or actually save.

    Good luck and God bless

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  90. Suboxone? been on suboxone for years and years. now i never get a physical addiction to dope! however... I stil seem to ruin my li9fe with it. I have no job. I had 2k$ in the bank. I keep pecking away @ it every other day doing dope. I have som many things i was suppost to do with that money...

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  91. Dear Art,

    I am a bit confused and I would like your take on this.
    I have been using on Foil for about 6 month off an on
    and recently began shooting. I rarely use more then once
    every 3 days. If I use alot as in shooting once a day for a few days
    and stop I DO get withdrawl BUT I am able to curb this by smoking
    small amounts until I am good again and can be sober.

    I know its a dangerous SLippery Slope.

    I Care about Myself and those around me
    I read nothing but Negative Information on the web
    including here about Quiting and Detoxing, and withdrawls.

    Am I ONE in a MILLION? Am I missing something here?
    I feel fine the way things are right now. But I would like some
    perspective.

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    1. I woke up one day n realised it controlled me not me controlling it, u are on a very fast slippery slope, the more clucks u do the worse it will get.
      Get out nw befor its to late. Ive been using for at least fifteen yrs it ruins n cripples everything about u. GET OUT WHILE U STILL CAN, BE STRONG N U WILL SUCCEED, XXXXX

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  92. My friend has been shooting heroin for about 2 years. He's went through about 2 weeks of withdrawal about 8 or 10 times that he remembers. He came to me ready to quit and I took him in. He went to rehab around Christmas and left within 2 weeks of being there and started using that day. He hasn't used a whole lot since then because he lost his job before he went to rehab and simply couldn't afford it. He had "friends" that would hook him up though so I'm guessing he was still using at least a couple times a day, just not all day every day like it was before.
    He has not used in 14 days. At first he was sweating profusely and had aches and normal withdrawal symptoms so he said. He started taking Suboxone the1st day he quit and would take a half a strip when he started to feel too bad. He'd immediately start feeling better and it'd tide him over for a few hours and sometimes until the next day. He stayed up much later than normal on Friday night because he was feeling great, right around 4am he started getting severe stomach cramps and violently vomiting. He tried taking a 1/2 of Suboxone and it did nothing. He took the other half about an hour later, nothing. He shot up a half of one and still absolutely no relief. He was screaming and his body was warping in pain. He was drenched with sweat. It went on for at least 48 hours straight. He got so bad that his arms were bent and his hands were curled up and locked.I tried giving him pedialyte and Gatorade and plenty of water but as soon as he drank it, it would come right back up. His vomit was just stomach bile except there were what appeared to be green and brown sticky clumps in there. I gave him 2 Immodium, 600mg IBProphen, and Benedryl to calm his stomach, ease the pain and help him sleep. I also tried Melatonin. His stomach chilled out enough to eat part of a banana which helped immediately with his tightened muscles and allowed his hands and arms to move. He was able to rest for 10-15 minutes at a time and eventually was able to speak. He told me none of his withdrawals had been like this at all. He said the cramps and sweats and vomiting was there but the severe pain in his stomach and the gunk floating in his vomit had never been there before. He also stated that he'd never started withdrawaling that hard after 11 days. I continued to give him Immodium every 2-3 hours. He slowly stopped vomiting quite as much and was able to keep Gatorade down. I checked on him at 9 am on Sunday morning and he was still sweating and aching and had just vomited, I gave him Immodium. When I turned the corner to check on him at 11, he was up dressed and clean shaven! I was so shocked and so was he, he said that the Immodium worked wonders.
    He was ok until last night when I gave him his multivitamin and a protein shake. He vomited and felt pretty bad for about 1.5-2 hours and then he was fine again.
    Tonight I fed him dinner and he immediately started vomiting. His stomach hurts now worse than it did the other 2 nights when he was in so much pain. His eyes are blood shot and rolling back, he's just laying in the bath tub with hot water on him crying. He said its never been this bad...when he was able to speak, now I cant make out anything he's saying. Do you know of anything I can do for his pain?? I tried giving him IBProphen again, Immodium and a strong sleeping pill but he just vomited it up. He cant even keep the immodium down this time! There is no green/brown gunk in his vomit anymore, its just bile now. He's not clammy or sweating like he was the last couple days. He's not having muscle aches that I'm aware of, its just the stomach pain, severe stomach pain.
    Please give any advice if you can. I want to take him to the hospital but last time he said don't becuause there's nothing they can do for him there that I cant do here and if he leaves this house he'll only use again. I believe that, so I'm trying to help him here.
    Thank you for your help.
    BL

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  93. hi my name is jay im just about to start my detox and i would like some help and guidence i have been smoking herion for twenty years but i did stop for four years and my life got so much better but meeting the wrong person again once again started me on the long path into distruction i have just got married and my wife thinks i have stoped i have a kid coming next month and i really know i got to stop please give me some help

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  94. Hello ppl,

    I first touched H when I was 19, now I'm 39. In this twenty years, were countless detox-sessions, including 5* times in hospital => They all together were for crap....no sense just a HUGE amount of Hours in PAIN.
    For me personally, the body WD-Symptoms were often pure Horror, but still noting, what happened in my head. This, in my voice called, Mind-FUCK is the REAL thing for me. This BIG BLACK HOLE that reaches your consciousness and absorbs any good-feeling, any hope, any thoughts, any interest, everything. Leaving you with the ultimate so called depression, where NOTHING has a sense. Even life is useless and the assumption is that THAT is REAL Life.
    And it didn't went away after a few days.

    Thou all of YOU....I CAN PROMISE -> IT WILL FADE AWAY !!!
    But don't think 1-2 weeks detox made your day. You will need a bit more power and time to get happy again.

    For all of you consider TRYING ---> DON'T !!!!!!
    It's a irreversible head-shot, it's a experience quite powerful as SEX/ORGASM (and this works now for million of years)
    You can't say I forget the orgasm, you can't forget H.
    So there is NO Try.....8 friends died

    What helped me was a 1 YEAR Detox/Rehab Center in the woods.
    It was no rehab center, more like a drill-camp, but it worked.

    And even now after 4 years clean, there a thoughts if I shouldn't switch to a life to say: Fuck you all, I don't wanna be sober, I'm a morphinist and END. No further discussion.
    But times where I laugh and feel good are definitely more than this bad thoughts. So I try to keep them arrested and think when I'm sixty, I know what I gonna do ;-)-


    Hell as teenager I thought about my future quite different...lol

    THX for reading

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  95. just spent a few hours on ur site reading i had my last hit about 3 hours ago and am gonna home detox sadly ive no other meds except some panadeine forte. i use a fifty dollar deal a day mybe sometimes every second day do u think my detox will be very severe as my biggest problem is i have a low pain threshold and am shit scared of doing thisbut im not gonna give up this time by the way im 50 started using at 15 sopped at 30 to have my kids and never used again until 5 years ago after a bad car accident and being placed on oxycontin good luck to all of u i wish u all well ill visit again for more advice im sure but bare with me as ive only just learnt to use computer as well luv to u all mezza xxxx

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  96. my boyfriend of two years let me for another girl because i accuse him of seen another girl and since then i have been trying to get him but he refuse to come back to me,he was not responding to my call or email and he even unfriend me in facebook and he told me that he is done with me.i was searching on the internet for help and i saw a testimony of how a spell caster help them to get their ex back so i decided to give it a try and i contacted him and i explain my problems to him and he cast a love spell for me and guarantee me of 3days that my ex will come back to me and to my greatest surprise the third day a great miracle fell on me and my ex come back to me on the third day and he beg me for forgiveness faraspiritualtemple@gmail.com i will continue to publish his name because he is my saviour and we are about to get married.if you need him to help you Email faraspiritualtemple@gmail.com

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  97. Over the counter cough syrup does not have codine u dumb fuck dont speak unless u know what your talking about. I would never take advice from u i was reading your post and as soon as
    i read that i was done and had to comment there is only 1 med over the. Counter with an opiate and it is a type of anti dieareea med

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  98. HI,
    Just wondering what the withdrawals may be like after just using once for one day. I was just finished a suboxone detox and did really well, then stupidly picked up again yesterday. I desperatly want to stay clean, have had long periods of clean time( 12 years) but hten relapsed twice in the past 2 years.

    I am scared the withdrawals are going to be bad like they have been for me when ive been on 4-7 day binges. I am clean today and feel Ok. when will the H be out of my system and will it get worse or gradually get better from here as i feel Ok today?

    Thanks L

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  99. my grandson's girlfriend delivered their baby in december 2011 he was born with heroine in his system and as a reult they lost their babies. they already had a nine month old daughter. my daughter is the mother of my grandson and she too has been on something. I really can't say what because i don't know. her daughter told me it is heroine. needless to say she and her husband could not pass the background check to be able to take custody of these babies. i have had these two babies for six months now. i requested a drug screen be administered on my grandson and his girlfriend because i was considering letting my grandson move in my home. the drug screens were done and both my grandson and his girlfriend tested positive for heroine.. they had just finished their drug counseling classes in may. i am very frustrated with them right now. i am 62 years old trying to keep these great grand babies out of the system. no one will help, not my grandson, the girlfriend, the grandparents (my daughter). my husband and i have been on our own with these babies. i have raised my four kids, kept two other grand kids for months on end, and have a 12 year old grand daughter i have raised from birth. i took these babies in under the assumption that the parents and grandparents were going to help. i now realize they aren't going to do that. i feel as i am in between a rock and a hard spot and am at my wits end. i hate to see these babies go to foster care but i feel i just can't deal with all of this any longer. i am not speaking to my grandson or my daughter anymore due to the way i have been treated from them since this all started. i am attached to these babies and they are likewise attached to us. it is going to break my heart to let these kids go to foster care but i feel i have no alternative. i have sent word to my grandson that if they want to sign these babies over to us until they decide to get there heads on right i will keep them as long as i am able to, but i am not going to continue going thru this any longer. i have to take the babies to children services twice a week for the parents to visit and they don't show half the time. i have to contend with monthly visits from social workers, help me grow, and the guardian adlitems. i haven't heard anything about my suggestion yet. i was going to confront the girlfriend at her visit today, but ss usual she didn't show. they are no longer allowed to have their visits together with the kids and now each parent gets only one day a week instead of two to visit. my husband and i were strangers to the oldest of these two babies and have worked real hard getting her content here. she is now fifteen months old and i know if she goes to foster care it is going to be devastating on her again and i hate to see her go thru that. the youngest is six months old and i am the closest thing to a mother he has had. i am truely fighting a battle within trying to decide what to do and it is making me sick. i will appreciate any advise you can give me.

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  100. My brother A-, who was my best friend, died two months ago from an overdose. He combined opiates and alcohol ... When my girlfriend called me to tell me the news, I was at work...

    I put my hands to my temples and started sobbing, saying "No... No... this can't be real... this can't be happening" ... I went to the hospital and held my brother's hand, talking to him even though he was brain dead and on a ventilator. They unplugged the machines two days later.

    I cried for days until I finally relapsed back on dope a week later, quitting the maintenance Suboxone I was taking. I can't begin to tell you how much losing your brother and best friend hurts, and heroin takes the pain away. It takes any pain away, for a little while . For the past months, I've been doing heroin daily so I don't have to feel the feelings that A- is gone.

    I want to stop, because I know otherwise I will end up like my brother. So here I sit, 36 hours after my last dose of H, dripping sweat , hot/cold flashes, nose running like a faucet, crying. If I had more heroin, I'd probably do it in all honesty , but I've run out, and so now is a good time to quit, and I should take advantage of the fact that I'm still okay. I want to quit , but I am terrified of withdrawals and I hate them.

    I was doing around 0.5g of dope day. I took 12mg subuxone, but it's barely done anything. The suboxone doesn't even touch these withdrawals, not at half a gram a day doses. I guess I should look on the bright side, which is that I'd be much much worse without the suboxone.

    I can't go to work though, since I'm so f-cked from these withdrawls... I'd sweat right through my clothes...

    The only thing I really know for sure is that God sent me my girlfriend, who gratefully, I still have. I understand now why she wants me to quit. I have lost damn near everything else to drugs, including all my money , and my family -- my brother , who is gone forever.

    I understand why people do H, I really do. Sometimes the pain and loneliness you feel is just so awful , especially if you are sensitive.

    But the other side of the coin is as much as you think you can keep it under control, you can't. And Death is lurking around the corner, ready to take you, your family, or friends.

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  101. After my wife and best friend died, I fell to the depths and gave in to heroin..just to be numb. When I needed to I'd snort coke just to feel ok enough to get out the house for food or more junk. I'm still struggling, but I've been cutting most of my junkie friends out of my life, and I have a few really good friends supporting me. I've been sober for about 30 hours and I know it's only gonna get worse but I really feel like once I get past this, It'll get better. Hey, I mean, when you're at the bottom the only place you can go is up!

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  102. Blackjack kinds of games is also very addicted games when you play first time then you want to play again and again.

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  103. ppl noo one gets on here no more or what i am planing to detox tommrow im 20yr old and my son has been tooken from me not from doing this drug bye the way i startd after he gotten tooken soo any one out there??

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  104. I am 19 years old and I have been shooting dope for a few months. I started by snorting it but a friend was shooting it so I did too. I am out of resources and money and there is virtually noway for me to get any dope. I have been in this situation twice before but I only made it 2 days into my detox to only get dope and spend 15 minutes finding a vein in my fuckcked up arms. I am frustrated and I hate heroin. I want to be clean so badly but I am so afraid of being sick. Not only the physical pain but the mental pain is just as unbearable. I constantly contemplate suicide. I am a very weak willed type of person and I feel so alone. I have nothing for myself and no money. I can't go to rehab and I don't know how to find subs. I am trying to prepare myself for the worst month of my life. I want to have a life again and be able to clearly think about things, something I have alwas had trouble with. I know the detox is coming, I want to go to my mothers but I don't think I can be sick there considering she has no idea. Its going to hurt so bad and I've already cried just in fear of what is to come. I don't feel like I belong here and I honeslty don't want to be here but I am too afraid to kill myself. Heroin and any other drug create a comfort for me and I don't know how to be happy or sober. I'm so scared. I plan on trapping myself in my apartment until some of the withdrawal has subsided. I have no money or transportation for over the counter drugs. I will be doing this alone with nothing to help me through it. If I had money I would buy dope even though it disgust me. I don't know what to do, I'm such a mess and I never wanted this for myself. I would never want this for anyone. I'm so sorry for anyone who is dealing with this vicious cycle. I hope we all make it.

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  105. I am the same girl who posted yesterday's. I am 19 and from Pittsburgh pa. It is currently 5am and I am going into my second day of withdrawal. I have not used any substance other than aspri,weed,small amount of alcohol, and nicotine. Nothing near as serious. As shootin dope. I have taken many hot. Baths walk to sooth my legs, and constant. Smoke sessions have mildly relieved my pain. Yes, pain. My biggest hate is not only the heroin itself but the restless leg syndrome. Not being able to sleep and extreme discomfort. NY stomach is in knots and it honestly hurts to breath. I wish the worst. Was over but I know that it isn't. I try to sleep through the worst but sleep only comes after oak exhausted of kind kicking and throwing my a aching legs. I wish I could say this were easy and that it isn't scary but it is and I do want to shoot massive amounts to relieve this horrific experience. This is just an expirrience. I hope to never do dope again because I don't think I can make it through two days twice. I suggest treatment if you are able, being alone with no aid is very intense and you will be constantly tempted by your own mind. I will continue to post as my wd continues. Smoke weed it creates w false mask of relaxation and overall contentment. It really helps me. I am on horrible pain as I type this but I've already made it. This far.

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  106. My name is Shawn, i want to appreciate thegreatoracletemple@gmail.com for what he has done. My ex-girlfriend and I reunited. She moved back in with me and we had a nice talk. We kissed for the first time in 8 months. Thanks you thegreatoracletemple@gmail.com for making this finally happen for me... Shawn

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  107. Hi My name is “Thomson” just want to share my experience with the world on how i got my love back and saved my marriage… I was married for 5years with 2kids and we lived happily until things started getting ugly and we had fights and arguments almost every time… it got worse at a point that she filed for divorce… I tried my best to make her change her mind & stay with me cause i loved her with all my heart and didn’t want to loose her but everything just didn’t work out… she moved out of the house and still went ahead to file for divorce… I pleaded and tried everything but still nothing worked. The breakthrough came when someone introduced me to this wonderful, great spell caster bishopjakesmore@gmail.com who eventually helped me out… I have never been a fan of things like this but just decided to try reluctantly cause I was desperate and left with no choice… He did special prayers and used roots and herbs… Within 7 days she called me and was sorry for all the emotional trauma she had cost me, moved back to the house and we continue to live happily, the kids are happy too and we are expecting our third child… I have introduced him to a lot of couples with problems across the world and they have had good news… Just thought I should share my experience cause I strongly believe someone out there need’s it… You can email him bishopjakesmore@gmail.com... Don’t give up just yet, the different between “Ordinary” & “Extra-Ordinary” is the “Extra” so make extra effort to save your marriage/relationship if it’s truly worth it.

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  108. i will tryimpeachzncream

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  109. Hi there i am 19 years old and have been struggling with herion for about 2 years. I have tried to quit several times threw methadone clinics, Ive tried quitting at home using other pharmaceuticals such as xanax and vicodin but relapsed shortly after. the longest i succeeded was for about 2 weeks and it was when i was doing my methadone treatment.It seems the only time i can quit is when im in jail. I am now on the waiting list to go to rehab and will be going in about 2 weeks . This drug has destroyed my family Its taken everything from me my job , my business, my friends and my confidence ... Once i get out of my rehab i Really do not want to relapse I need to get this demon out of my life it has destroyed me mentally and physically . Is their any advice on how to stay clean once i leave my rehab ? I know that herion will still be lingering in my thoughts. I am weak when it comes to drugs any advise will be helpfull!

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  110. hi m 22 year old boy n m studying...i think m in my worst time of my life again...tell u abt me..m doing drugs n all for continous 9 yrs sinnce i was 15...i used to take drugs with all mix up..previous month i stopped taking heroine..i knws the pain after tht..but by bupex plus medicine i was able to quit it..but unfortunately again i started n now caught in that fucking smack sickness cycle..i dont eat until i do it n i do it with charas.in my life i became addicted to so many drugs like drug pill, heroine,coacine,lsd,charas,dilauter,ketamine,,n whenever i do it i do it with charas like 1g gram a day of heroine n continous shot of good joints..but i know m caught again n i want to quit it again..m from india plz help me...well only available med here for sickness is bupex plus i think so.i knw m highly addictive to tht fuckin heroine we called smack here..when i quitted before i feels tht sickness even after 25 day...its worst

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  111. These stories are truly inspiring. I stopped using opiates by using kratom. There are a few clinics that recommend the kratom. The effects of withdrawal from heroine and prescription opiates were greatly reduced with kratom. If you are not familiar with this herb, it comes from Asia, is legal in all 50 states and coming off Kratom is nothing but a cold compared to opiates. I suggest setting a quiting date and stocking up on Kratom. Unfortunately, kratom is difficult to find in stores. My trusted "pharmacist" is an online supplier: MonsterHerbs.com. They ship quickly. Good luck to all.

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    1. Hi there thanks for sharing with us. Yes I have heard that kratom helps with heroin addiction. I have personally never used it but if it helps why not.

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  114. God this is so sad I keep reading all these post and the reason I found this site is because my boyfriend is a heroin addict. I am absolutely at my end with him. He is selfish and the biggest liar I have ever met. I do not understand how one person on heroin can ruin everyone's life around them. We have two kids together my daughter has turned 18. Needless to say I didnt have the money for a gift because of his heroin addicted ass. I am so fed up with him I know at one point in time he was a good person now he is just a junkie that doesnt care about anyone but himself. As I type this I am sitting here right now trying to keep him from nodding off while he is so high by constantly saying his name...I am so angry and pissed to the point that anything that comes out of my mouth is mean. I cant make him leave because all I can think is how if he od's I am gonna feel like it was my fault for not babysitting his heroin ass. How do I remove him from my family without destroying it? My son is 16 and now he smokes pot..I dont know what to do with my family it feels like we have fallen into some black hole that their dad has created and I am not seeing an end anymore. I keep looking him over for signs of overdose but he (when he is not nodding out) keeps telling me he is not overdosing...I am in need of some help from people who will understand. I am tired of all the looks and opinions of people who have never been in my shoes. I know I had to love him at one point in time but he has made it impossible to love him now. I am done playing his addictive game....

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    1. Why be with him in the first place? am sorry but if your a woman enough and not desperate for a man then you'll never be with a heroin addict. You cant be with someone or love someone who is an addict, what has he done for you? what has he done that people can applaud and respect?...A woman once told me she will only be with a man who respects her, deserves her, is a good humble man with class and dignity, these are the guys who deserved to be loved and give love back, so junkies don't do it. .Your with him for the wrong reasons, perhaps you know other guys won't fancy you? fear of ending up alone? still no excuses, for crying out loud think of your children, what life are you going to lead?...Think of all the woman who have decent careers, are married, going on holidays, got an education, intelligence, houses, cars, yachts, lovely respectable children etc basically having the time of their lives, yet your with a heroin addict? addiction is a choice. I say this as an ex-addict myself and everything am saying am talking from experience. Tough love is needed, if you carry on supporting him he'll never quit, he needs to be kicked out on the streets, struggle to make ends meat and then he'll realize what is more important, trust me I know these things. Anybody with self-respect, morals and integrity either will never do drugs or qill quit drugs and put more important aspects/loved-oned and him/herself first. I know many women who left their man when they found out he was a junkie, thats what you call being a woman. Whats so goo about him then your with him? the sex? that is a sad reason and shows insecurity, these traits don't get you far in life..You need to woman up and leave otherwise your only digging your own grave too. The saying goes who's more of the fool? the fool or the one who follows the fool?

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  115. Dear Art, What a blessing it has been the last couple of hours reading your postings. I am an employer and I often give work to "recovering" drug/alcohol abusers who live in clean and sober houses. Recently, (not by choice) I stumbled onto three heroin users and your web site has given me more education than I was able to glean from a dozen others. I am mostly aware of just how pernicious heroin addiction is and how difficult it is to stop and how traumatic the withdrawal process is. God bless you for making all of this information available. I was a drinking alcoholic for about 22 years and AA was my salvation. I hope many of your readers are warned about the terrible damage heroin addicts can cause to those around them (lying, stealing and the gut wrenching pain that goes with it). God speed!

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  116. Hi there

    Thanks a lot for sharing this I am glad you liked the site I do my best to help others recover from addiction because I am a recovery addict and I want to give back some of the things that were freely given to me.

    I have another site about heroin addiction to if you would like to check it out..

    Heroinaddictionhelpguide.com

    Keep up the good work of helping others

    Good luck and God Bless

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  117. My guy just got out of rehab two weeks after that him try to hit me do that means he back on herion

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  118. im on my third day of withdrawal and am an absolute agony im doin this with no meds completly cold turkey this is the worst thing i have ever been thru how long will it be before i am able to sleep again??

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  119. Hi Art I am married from last 9yrs but husband was addict to weed (GANJA) but i was ok with this, because it was not hurting me or his job but now from last 6months he started heroine, my life is totally changed, he never come home on time, abusing me, teasing me with wrong words. I am from India, seeking for a help

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  120. Hi there

    The best thing I can tell you is that if you have not suggested that he get help that you do so and if you have and he has not or does not want to get help then its up to you to lay down the law.

    I would let him know that you are not going to stand for it if this means leaving him then that's what you will have to do. It makes no sense to let him continue to destroy your life and mistreat you too.

    Good luck

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  121. Wow. It sounds like there's alot of good info here. I'll make sure to use this in my school project on the subject, and trust me when I say that as a teenager, I will never do heroin or meth or any other kind of drug. Except for anti biotics, because they help me in good ways, unlike herion.

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  122. Hey im a heroin addict that has relapsed twice now and i put my family thru so much i am so ashamed in myself i am completly broke i dont even have a dollar 2 my name and it has been 24 hrs since my last dose need some advice on how 2 stay clean can anybody help me please i desperately need it.

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  123. Interesting post. I have been wondering about this issue,so thanks for posting.

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  124. hey i am a heroin addict i am 19 and have been shooting dope for about a year i met this girl whom i have been with for about 2years i one day walked up into the attic of our house where she spent a lot of her time and curiously went through a drawer and found empty dope bags and needles i confronted her about it and she was honest with me i then somehow got caught up in it and we have been using together thing slowly got bad i was showing up late for work because i would refuse to go to work sick so i lost my job so i then started getting other drugs for people so i could get my drugs my girlfriend had then lost her job and soon after we lost our house we then moved in with her mom who had found out going through our room one day and through us out i managed to convince my parents to let me n her move in and then they found out and threw us out we now have no where to go we are homeless and every night is a constant struggle to figure out where i am going to sleep that night i have lost most of my friends cuz i constanly stole from them and my family to get high i feel like i am the lowest peice of shit there is i have done many people wrong n i am tired of being this person in highschool i played varsity baseball football and basketball but i gave it all up n dropped out to do drugs n have been replacing one addiction with another i went from pot to coke to xanex to alcohol to crack to heroin i just want the best for me and my girl she is doing good tho she will b in the methadone clinic by next week i am going to cold turkey it im just so scared to go through the symptoms it feels horrible n i wouldnt wish it on my worse enemies i just need some advice on what i shoud do with my relationship we constanly fight when we are sick we havent had sex in 2 months its a chore to hug and kiss each other we used to be so happy n i want that happiness back for us the stress is just so great i just need someone to tell me what i should do thanks i hope i havnt been too much of a bother just really needed to get some things out

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  125. I'm really glad i found this site too, like many others have said.
    I have been shooting heroin for 9 months or alittle longer, before that i was sniffing perc 30's. I am on day 5 of not shooting but I haven't gotten here without help. I had 2 suboxine that i used to help keep withdrawel symptoms at bay. I used pieces and tried to wean down. This is the first morning I haven't had anything and I'm starting to feel alittle sick. Nothing like what I would be but it scares me. Will I brake and call someone to find a bag?? Will i keep getting sicker or do i feel better from here?
    I don't want to use again. I wish I had never started this awful, painful addiction.
    I can't get anything like cough medicine with codeine over the counter as I live in the U.S. and i cant find any more subs. Was wondering if you had any suggestions for me? Things i could try, to feel better. Things to think or anything at all to keep my 5 days moving forward.
    Thank you.

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  126. Thanks for all your advice. I have a cousin that I care about and adore and really just want the best for her. She needs mental health and addiction help and I'll do anything to make sure she gets it. I don't want her to feel like I'm attacking her though. Thanks for all the great advice.

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  127. Good advice. I believe calling an addiction hotline such as

    National Addiction Hotline where they can talk to someone 24 hours a day 7 days a week or call (855) YES-REHAB. Either way the link or the number will help them

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  128. I am a 2 yr attic in northern mi, about a month ago I attended my best freinds funeral. He fell out off heroin and alcohal outside and he was found in a snow bank after bein plowed up by a snow plow and it has torn me apart inside and now im doin more then ever and I am scared how it might end if I dont quit. I have lost a dream home, many freinds and my sons mom who I was wit since I was 13 I am now 24. I realy wanna b their for my 4yr old son so he dont ever hav to go through wat I am but I am so scared of the sickness and it makes it seem almost iimpossible to b clean. Its easter day and I am wit my family and I hav shit on me and have been doin it in the bathroom and none of them kno and I just dont think this is how it should be...

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  129. My son is a heroin addict. It's been horrible. He has stolen everything of value I have. We were lucky enough to have a family member in Japan willing to take him. He has been there 2 months. There are hardly any drugs in Japan, so he doesn't have access. He is due back in one month. Visitors can only stay 3 months. I am thinking about quitting my job and taking out my 401k money and traveling overseas with him and his sister. If he comes back here he will use again. I just know it. It upsets me. I will be giving up so much. My job, my money, my boyfriend. I can't see any other way. Maybe lock him up in a room. Lol. I am thinking the longer I can keep him away from this, the better his chances are.

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  130. My 45 year old son is using heroin. He has an autistic 10 year old son, my grandson. I love them both, but CANNOT do this anymore. They've been kicked out by everyone they've stayed with. My son has hocked my grandsons 3DS & games several times, my guess is for money to buy more heroin. I let them move in temporarily, 'til he finds someplace for them. I saw a list he'd made of expenses, habit - 30@$900.00. That won't leave him money for rent let alone rent and food. I feel bad that I don't want to hear anymore of his stories (truth or lies). I am scaird for my grandson, but can not take him, and fear for his security. His Pappa is his life and I am the only person he feels safe with. I feel as tho' I'm letting them both down by not trying harder, but the levels of pain and anxiety at seeing what he has done to their lives is more than I can endure. I called a local 12 step program meeting site. Then asked him if he'd go to a local 12 step program, one he is familiar with, and got rebuffed. I want it to all go away.....I feel as tho' I'm locked back into my childhood of sexual abuse from my father with no way out. Just that feeling of being trapped in hell with no escape. I am enduring for now but this has to stop. I am scaird scaird scaird. I need some direction. I've been reading na-anon and while helpful...there's no real direction. Any information, direction, references, etc. would be appreciated.

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  131. I need help.
    Im a mother,a wife,a good person..i haven't lost anything except for my soul.i wamt to Stop using so bad.i had an ex who introduced me to pills i won that battle,so i thought.i used for a year and was clean for 2 months when a friend told me to "try this" it was dope.... I was in the process to losing my home,to no fault of my own,i lost my boyfriend and was what i thought hopeless...it started as a weekend thing...slowly i got my life back..my boyfriend became my fiancé i moved to a wonderful home..but i was using everyday,and now still am...its been a year now and i wanna quit so bad..i told my family and my fiancé is here to help..but im scared,ive never been even a day now without it..everyone else thinks i clean and i cant ruin the only relationships ive manage to salvage..when i asked for help everyone disappeared..my druggie friends,my clean friends absolutely everyone..now its just me,him and our son and i need this soo bad..i went and bought vitamins,stuff for leg cramps,imodium,and gatorade.i have some subs but am scared to take them..i also am prescribed ativan..im scared..i dont know how im going to feel and if its anything like pills,i was dying :( ive been much healthier on this.i can eat,ive gained weight,thats why its been easy to hide...i used about 5 bags a days..and Stop around 9 at night..im a pretty regular person..i want to live my life without worrying about being ok...how am i going to feel in these next coming days...i dont know if i can do this...but i tried a rehab and couldn't be away from home and came home...how can i beat this? Is there anything that will help?i have a couple subs but am scared to switch one evil for another..im sorry.i didn't want this to happen...i just want to be ok...is it going to be easier than what ive seen my friends go thru seeing as they shoot it?? Thank you..reading all this has helped <3

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    1. By the way..i dont know if there's a difference but i sniff it...ive never done it any other way..does that make a difference?? thank you.any advice is greatly appreciated

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    2. Never mind not staying in rehab you are doing great if I was you i would take the subs to help you with your withdrawal

      Good luck

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  133. I came across this blog because I have a young niece who uses heroin. Reading the posts here- how wonderful of you all to open and share your lives.
    There are some words that I have for those struggling with addiction and sobriety. You matter. Your life matters. You are loved by people who you do not know and don't know you. YOU are worth the effort to get clean and stay clean. You matter. You are smart, beautiful, funny, talented and so much stronger than you give yourself credit for. Please do not ever stop fighting for your right to be sober. You are in many thoughts and prayers. For what it's worth, I love you and pray for the very best for you.

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    1. Thank you so much . I dont feel as alone as I did when I woke up. Thank you

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    2. You are most welcome. You are not alone. Even when it feels that way, you are not alone. Prayers and blessings for you and your family.

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    3. Thanks a lot for sharing you are right we are not alone.

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  134. Greeting to any body that is reading my comment, All Thanks goes to dr.trust, i was married to my husband, and we were living fine and happy. it come to an extend that my husband that use to love and care for me, those not have my time again, until i fined at that he was having an affair with another woman, i try to stop him,all my effort was in-vain sadly he divorce me and went for the woman. he live me with two of our kids, i cry all day, i was in pains, sorrow and looking for help. i was reading a news paper, i saw how dr. trust help people with his love and reuniting spell. so i decided to contact him and explain my problem to him, he did a love spell that make my husband to come back to me and our kids and never think of the woman. this man is god sent to restore heart break and reunite relationship. may the lord be your strength and continue to use you to save people relationship and any problem they encounter contact him for help ULTIMATESPELLCAST@GMAIL.COM. i promise you that you, he will but a smile on your face and make you feel happy. good luck.

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  135. How are you? i just wanted to let you know...that things worked out very well..well i should have told u this..a week ago..but i wanted to email u when i was fully confident that things are workin out... yuangi is back wid me..our relationship is just like before the first time we met...
    Ok Dr Obodo templeofanswer@hotmail.co.uk cell +2348155425481

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  136. I NEVER BELIEVED IN LOVE SPELLS UNTIL I MET THIS WORLD'S TOP SPELL CASTER. HE IS REALLY POWERFUL AND COULD HELP CAST SPELLS TO BRING BACK ONE'S GONE,LOST,MISBEHAVING LOVER AND MAGIC MONEY SPELL OR SPELL FOR A GOOD JOB.I'M NOW HAPPY & A LIVING TESTIMONY COS THE WOMAN I HAD WANTED TO MARRY LEFT ME 2 WEEKS BEFORE OUR WEDDING AND MY LIFE WAS UPSIDE DOWN COS OUR RELATIONSHIP HAS BEEN ON FOR 2YEARS... I REALLY LOVED HIM, BUT HIS MOTHER WAS AGAINST US AND HE HAD NO GOOD PAYING JOB. SO WHEN I MET THIS SPELL CASTER, I TOLD HIM WHAT HAPPENED AND EXPLAINED THE SITUATION OF THINGS TO HIM..AT FIRST I WAS UNDECIDED,SKEPTICAL AND DOUBTFUL, BUT I JUST GAVE IT A TRY. AND IN 7 DAYS WHEN I RETURNED TO USA, MY GIRLFRIEND(NOW WIFE) CALLED ME BY HERSELF AND CAME TO ME APOLOGIZING THAT EVERYTHING HAD BEEN SETTLED WITH HIS MOM AND FAMILY AND SHE GOT A NEW JOB INTERVIEW SO WE SHOULD GET MARRIED..I DIDN'T BELIEVE IT COS THE SPELL CASTER ONLY ASKED FOR MY NAME AND MY GIRLFRIENDS NAME AND ALL I WANTED HIM TO DO... WELL WE ARE HAPPILY MARRIED NOW AND WE ARE EXPECTING OUR LITTLE KID,AND MY WIFE ALSO GOT THE NEW JOB AND OUR LIVES BECAME MUCH BETTER. IN CASE ANYONE NEEDS THE SPELL CASTER FOR SOME HELP, HIS EMAIL ADDRESS IS;okutemple@hotmail.com ......HOPE HE HELPS YOU OUT OUR OPPORTUNITY ... CONTACT THIS GREAT SPELL CASTER VIA EMAIL:okutemple@hotmail.com


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  137. THE GREAT DR SAMBOLA WHO BROUGHT MY HUSBAND BACK TO ME IN JUST A 7 DAY.
    My name is [Elizabeth R Widen] I live in California, and i got married four months ago. My husband and I have been living a very happy and lovely life. So as time went on, I began to notice this strange attitude that he was possessing. He was now going out with other girls, to the extent that he was no longer picking up my calls, and he was not even sleeping in my house anymore. I became confused and didn't know what to do anymore. So i became worried and stranded, that brought so many thoughts into my mind, because I have never experienced a thing like this before in my life.
    So I decided to visit a spell caster, to see if he can help me out. So immediately I went to the internet, where I saw an amazing testimony of a spell caster who brought someone's ex lover back,[sambolatemple@gmail.com] " so I contacted him immediately and I explained to him all my problems and he told me that it will be very easy for him to solve, compare to the ones that he has done before. And he also gave me some proof to be really sure of his work, and he assured me that my husband will come back to me immediately he is through with the spell casting. And also he told me to put all my trust in him, and I really obeyed him.
    So it was 8:00 am on the next morning, when I was about going to work, when i received my husband's call, and he told me that he was coming back home, and he apologized to me, and told me that he is very sorry for the pain that he has cost me. And after some hours later, he really came back home, and that was how we continued our marriage with lots of love and happiness, and our love was now stronger than how it were before.
    And he also told me that once my heart desire has been granted unto me that i should go and testify of his work right here on the internet. Right now I am the happiest woman on earth today as I am writing this testimony, and I want to really thank Dr sambola "via email sambolatemple@gmail.com " for bringing back my husband back, and for bringing joy and love to my family.
    So my greatest advice for you out there who your husband or your wife is acting strange or behaving the same way like this, or you have any problem with your relationship or anything related to do with spell casting, is for you to go and visit this man anytime, and i assure you that he will be of help to you, and I am 100% sure that he will solve it out. contact this great man if you have problem with your lover with is via email sambolatemple@gmail.com
    Thank DR SAMBOLA

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  138. I am Jessica Mike, I promise to share this testimony all over the world once my boyfriend return back to me, and today with all due respect i want to thank Okpoko for bringing joy and happiness to my relationship and my family. I want to inform you all that there is a spell caster that is real and genuine. I never believed in any of these things until i loosed my boyfriend, I required help until i found (Dr.okpokospellhome@gmail.com ) a grate spell caster, And he cast a love spell for me, and he assured me that I will get my boyfriend back in one day after the spell has been cast. 1 day later, my phone rang, and so shockingly, it was my boyfriend who has not called me for past 3 years now, and made an apology for the heart break, and told me that he is ready to be my back bone till the rest of his life with me. Okpoko released him up to know how much i loved and wanted him. And opened his eyes to picture how much we have share together. As I’m writing this testimony right now I’m the most happiest girl on earth and me and my fiance is living a happy life and our love is now stronger than how it were even before our break up. So that’s why I promised to share my testimony all over the universe.All thanks goes to Okpoko for the excessive work that he has done for me. Below is the email address in situation you are undergoing a heart break, and I assure you that as he has done mine for me, he will definitely help you too. email him on; Dr.okpokospellhome@gmail.com I love you farther so must. To make me happy again.

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  139. Hello every body, my name is Rouland and I just want to let you all know that having a broken heart is not an easy thing, but no matter how bad your situation may be, I want to let you all know that there is a way to get your ex chasing you around again wanting to be with you, because this is exactly what I did when my girlfriend left me for someone else and I am happy today cause she is back. wiseindividualspell@gmail.com was were I got the chance to get my girlfriend back and I will also want you all to give it a try.

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  140. My Name is Mrs blessing, I was married to my husband for 8years and we were both blessed with three children, living together as one love, until 2013 when things was no longer the way it was [when he lost his job]. But when he later gets a new job 6 months after, he started sleeping outside our matrimonial home. Only for me to find out that he was having an affair with the lady that gave him the job. since that day, when i called him, he no longer pick up my calls and nothing good since to come out from him. Yet my husbands just still keep on seeing the new girl friend till Dr. ikoko cast a spell for me, now he is back with me and me only. And i am happy with my family if you need his help contact on via email,ikokotemple@gmail.com

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  141. My name is Mr Cardenas,my wife was having affair with a senior secretary in her office. I love this woman so much that i would not want to share her with any body. i told her to retire from the job and i would take care of all her needs but she would take it because she is been embraced by everybody in her office, this normally leads to quarrel every-time. i tried all i can to please her and she will promise to be good , some days later she will turn back to her normal way.
    i was nearly loosing out, i could not focus in my job, my whole life was full of sorrow and i was thinking i should kill the other man my self and put an end to all this until i saw a testimony from a blog on how DR EDIONWE could cast a love spell to bring lovers back no matter what is behind the disappointment. so i decided to write him via email. edionwesolutiontemple@yahoo.com and now all my wishes are exactly as i wanted. She told me everything that has happened secretly in the past and i forgave her as DR EDIONWE instructed me to and she loves me and care for me as i ever wanted. i know there are many spells that do not work but i want to assure all you out there no matter what you have been trough to have faith and believe that this is the final solution to your problem.
    Even if my job is taking most of my time, the little free time i have , i will share the good news to everyone in the world because i know that with love brings happiness and hope for a long life.

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  142. if someone is smoking heroin in one room can it affect people in the next room??

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  143. Hello. I am trying to get clean but when it come to about day 2 or 3 I always give in. I'm 32 and I have 2 children. But they don't live with me. That's a good thing. But why I'm writing is. I'm looking for some clean friends that I can talk to cause I really want to get clean but I don't have a good support system and I want to get thur the withdrawal before I go to any N.A meeting m. So for not I'm looking for some help from some one who has been thur this.. I've been using for 7 years now and it's getting old to me I want a change.. But I'm looking for someone to talk to. So if anyone is interested in helping me thur this PLEASE COMMENT!! We can exchange email ..

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  144. My name is velvet foster I am from Florida my Testimony goes to Love

    spiritual temple, Me and my husband breakup 4 months ago and he told me

    that he don't love me any more and went to be with another Girl's was

    still in love with him and need her back I try to get him back but all

    my effort was in vain until I reach out to the internet for help and I

    saw a testimony of a spell caster, I decided to give it a try and I

    contacted him and tell him my problem. He cast a love spell for me and

    guarantee me of three days that my husband will come back to me and to

    my greatest surprise my husband come back to me and beg for forgiveness

    and promise never to live me again, I am so happy my husband is back to

    me again, thank you ultimate Dr Osaze for reuniting me and my husband

    back together again. If you need him to help you contact them today and

    all will be well with you via email:spirituallove@hotmail. com

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  145. Do you know I had tried many casters before you and I have to say you are excellent in every way. Affordable spells that work!! not like some out there charging so much yet no results lol.. and your customer service that's so good too. You handle each client in a friendly and personal way. I really am very impressed... Keep doing what you're doing..you've won me over that's for sure. Thanks Dr. Abu. Contact him and he shall make you very happy no matter what your situation is, just try you have nothing to loose about this dear reader. Ominighospelltemple@gmail.com

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  146. HOW I ALL MOST LOST $400.00USD
    Hello friends.My name is Sarah. I'm from from kenxas, but am in Australia.Been living in Australia for years now.I never believed in all spell caster.i Have been scammed by many different people.I lost hope in them.My ex left me.I was devastated.I lost my job.My best friend saw my situation.Then he introduced me to Dr Idibia .i Was told his work is free.Never believed until i got in touch with him.He did a spell for me. i recover all my money and My ex came back in less than 72hrs.I was recalled at my place of work.Was even promoted immediately.I couldn’t believe there is a real Dr out there who does free spells.I only paid in appreciation after the spell had worked.He doesn’t charge anybody until the spell has worked.You all shouldn’t be deceived by all these scammed that are there for money.Dr Idibia doesn’t charge.You can only pay for the items and he will start the spell-casting.Try him and see what am saying.These are the few things he does
    {greatidibiaspelltemple30@gmail.com}
    *HE BRING BACK LOST LOVERS IN 24hrs.
    *REMOTE CONTROL OVER LOVERS.
    *ALL TYPES OF VOODOO SPELL CASTING.
    * IS YOUR HEALER TO SOLVE YOUR PROBLEMS? THIS IS YOUR CHANCE TO BE HELPED QUICKLY.
    *GET RIDE OF ANY WITCHCRAFT, BAD LUCK & CURSES.
    * EXPERT IN DISTANCE HEALING
    *COURT CASES EVEN IF ONE IS CONVICTED[IF THERE'S A CHANCE OF APPEALING]
    *IS SOMEBODY JEALOUS WITH YOUR RELATIONSHIP?
    *UNFINISHED JOBS BY OTHER DOCTORS-IF NOT SATISFIED-COME TO HIM.
    *ARE YOU BEING FORCED INTO A DIVORCE?
    *HE PREVENT BAD LUCK AND JEALOUSY.
    *TO WIN HORSES AND GAMBLING.
    *HE CAN STOP SOME ONE INTERFERING WITH YOUR RELATIONSHIP.
    * DO YOU WANT TO HAVE CHILDREN OF YOUR OWN
    *DO YOU WANT QUICK MARRIAGE PROPOSAL?
    *HE CAN CLEAN PEOPLE HOUSES,BUSINESSES AND PROPERTIES FROM BAD LUCK.
    *DO YOU NEED EXCESSIVE SEXUAL POWER AND STRONG ERECTIONS.
    * WOMEN, COME FOR THE TAMPON. IT WILL HELP YOU NOT TO LOSE YOUR RELATIONSHIPS BECAUSE IT MAKES YOU SWEET, WARM AND TIGHT.
    You can get in touch with him through THIS EMAIL ADDRESS {greatidibiaspelltemple30@gmail.com} OR CALL +2348103508204.

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